Friday, October 19, 2007, 5:17 AM
sometimes i wonder...hias...what am i wondering?i really don't know.it's complicated.i love drama.cause it always have a good ending. hahas.lols.today...school was as usual today.pigpig laogong reach school before me.i'm contented as long as he is with me.i just wanna hold him tight.hias...as per normal.we had our time together in the morning before school.went to parade square went the bell goes off...ting tong ting tong.lols.i'm going mad.i love pigpig.but always do things that make him sad, angry, upset or worst still hurt his pride.hias...sometimes i really don't know i did that.is he angry with me?i really want to know.but i'm really dumb/stupid/idiot/coward...that's the only thing i knowhais...i'm down.keep on bickering with him.but deep in my heart, he still stands a important place.finally today finish the marshmallow i bought for him.lols.A BIG CARROT!hahas.then during english lessons, we got to be separated again.so sick!he was feeling down too...cause i keep talking to those guys around me.gary, weibin, chingshin and jasper.and i never write letter to him.i thought he was sleeping.cause he was lying down and he never respond when i called himhias...so guilty of making him down.i had failed my job as her girlfriend.i just wanna shout out loud.I'M SO SORRY!!!will anyone hear me out?hias...i doubt anyone will.argh!mdm wee called pigpig and me out of the class today during her lesson.she advice us to focus on our studies now.instead of anything else.cause our results are dropping.i am sad.i was thinking about it.not thinking of breaking definely.but thinking of what is he thinking.hias...during chinese lesson was like some sort of missing him.never see him.then after lesson was so happy to see him.went to hawker to eat with him and jasper.had western food.need to rush back school by 1.15p.m.cause he need to call his mom.was some sort of angry cause i hardly have time with him.but we still need to rush to eat.but i think i should be more understanding.since i choose to be with him.i should just accept everything of his.hahas.was raining so heavily when we are on the way back to school.jasper let me and pigpig have his umbrella.and he was in the rain.lols.thanks jasper.hahas.then while waiting for the green man to cross the road, a stupid car just ran through so fast.splash the water on me and pigpig.lols.so worried that he will get sick from the rain.pigpig eu must takkaires worx.after calling his mom, went back class to dry ourselves.hahas.my blouse, my skirt, my shoes were all wet. and theirs were wet too.lols.took off my skirt to dry it.still got my shorts inside.but i was cold.cause my legs were wet.then pigpig hug me to keep me warm.hahas.was really some sort of happy.then after that we went to our CCA.his ncc and my co.lols.only me and longhuai turn out for the practice cause no teacher at all.hahas.went down to canteen to look for him at 4p.m.saw him playing football.sit there for about 40mins.thought he will see me.but he never.but never mind.hehes.then walked around bic room.saw his friends francis and samson.samson lend me his walkie talkie to talk to him.lols.was like so funny.after co, wait for his dad with him.hahas.his dad take so long to come.cause he is working at tuas.then was like keep making him upset.so sorry laogong.say HE JUNHAO is handsome.then pigpig was like some sort of...but the fact is i was just playing with him.HE JUNHAO is not handsome.lols.his dad arrived at around 6.11p.m.then after that went to take bus home with jasper.i went to the playground.to play the swing alone.was thinking about what i said to him.i know i am wrong.sorry my beloved laogong.i done eu wrong.*even though i always show the face as if i don't care but i'm just putting up a strong front.eu know?the fact is i care.i really care.i can't live without eu, laogong.eu are perfect in my eyes.bearbear<33pigpig2 months 28 days with pigpig.i am happy with eu.
