so what's up?
what's new?
i just want some entertainment to make the time passes much more easier.

hais...
yesterday night was chatting with jun hao on msn.
starting, was quite happy.
but after that, it just turn another way round.
he told me that he still feels for joy and yanting.
hias...
it make my day worsen.
i'm at total lost.
i feel like shouting out loud!
WHO AM I?
WHO DO I LIVE FOR?
WHY AM I BORN TO THIS WORLD?
i really don't know.
and i have no answer to that.
then he said that he will leave me for some peace.
initally, i really want to be alone when i came to know that he still feels for that two girls.
but when he say he leave me for some peace, i just want him to be by my side.
i just want him to tell me that he is just playing with me.
it is not true at all.
he don't feel for them at all.
but is it possible?
hias... ...
just sign off after that.
everyone in the family have sleep.
i just feel so lonely.
i really don't know what to do.
CRY OUT LOUD!
use the blanket and cover my face and cry out loud!.
this is what i always do.
sorry...

he msg me to say that he has no face to see me. ask me not to mag him anymore cause is making him cry.he also tell me not to look for him tomorrow at the tuition centre there.
he said that he is not bringing his phone so that i can't contact him.

why is he doing this to me?
did i do something wrong?
do i deserve that?

hias...

today wake up at around 9am.
decided to look for him.
reach katong mall at 10.08am.
just hope to see him for one more time and i'll be contented.
that's the most i am asking for.
hias...
he reach at around 11.10am.
waited for him for 1 hour plus.
but never mind.
at least i get to see him.
walked around katong mall with him.
he hold my hand and say sorry to me.
it was some sort of touching.
feel like hugging him and have a big cry.
but i never.
went to the staircase there.
he hug me tight.
i just feel the love he had for me.
my heart just melts.
once again i feel like crying!
so stupid.
keep feeling like crying.
hias...
then went to cold storage.
he want to buy chocolate.
and i bought pasta sauce.
went to the tuition centre with him after that.
then went back home.

♥JUN HAO♥
-I JUST WANT TO HOLD ON TO EU.
-I JUST COULDN'T AFFORD TO LOSE EU.
-I JUST WANT TO BE PART OF UR LIFE.
-I JUST WANT EU TO BE HAPPY.
-I JUST WANT EU TO TREAT ME BETTER
-I JUST WANT EU TO STAY BY MY SIDE AND NO WHERE ELSE.
-I JUST WANT EU FORGET *THEM.

But is that possible?
pls tell me.

3 months 7 days together with laogong.
just want to love eu.
just plead for ur love.