just came back from a 12 days china exchange programme...
went to so many place during these 12 days.
and so many things happen.
we are even quarrelling when one is in china and the other one in singapore.
can eu believe that?
i can't.
i really can't.
he was misunderstanding me.
even at the airport he said that he heard guys voices.
when the airport is so crowded with people...
someone has been encouraging him during these period of time.
and i know it is not me.
and it gonna be her.
i guess in his heart, i am always the one always trying to oppose him, make him jealous, make him angry...
do i have any good points?
i guess not.
i cried every night in china.
since he said that he called YJ.
and i know that i am pretty jealous.
at first he said that he called her because she called him many times and he never pick up her phone and so he called her back.
the second time he said that he called her because she was quarrelling with her stead and he console her or something like that.
and the last time he told me that he called her just to make me jealous.
well i guess i am going to give up soon.
i don't know how to trust him just like he choose not to trust me.
i just can't allow myself to be angry with him.
did i love him too much?
is he very important to me?
i guess the answer is YES.
are we going to be over?
i don't know.
i don't even know if we suit one another.
all i know is that we always quarrel.
we have been together for 4 months 22 days and yet we still can't trust each other at all.
we are trying to change each other.
hias...
will we be happier without each another?
single.
i think will be the best.
but just can't bear to put him down from my heart...

even when the nights are making me sweat, ur ignorance just make my heart turns cold.
or even sometimes when the nights are at 0 degrees and i am still shivering in cold, thinking of ur love for me makes me feel warm...i love eu{210707}