Wednesday, January 30, 2008, 3:13 AM

life become meaningless.
i am so down everyday.
i don't know why.
today was just another day for me.
lessons are still tiring.
i lost the motivation to move on.
i lost myself.
i feel like crying.
can i?
i'm getting frustrated of my own mood.
why am i always affected by his words? or mood?
why am i so unstable?
why is he adding salt to my wound?
why?
we're running out of topic to say everyday.
keep on quarrelling.
i just feel that we are together cos of his mom.
hias..
i simply know that i can't go on like that.
i gonna do something.
he msg me and told me to stop scolding or saying them if not he will get angry or scold me.
i just get use to it.
i want to be happy.
i want to live for myself.
we are drifting apart.
i hate it.
but what can i do?
in the past i was happier because i don't know the existance of them.
but now...
i know...
i couldn't feel the love he used to shower on me anymore.
never.

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