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Friday, April 11, 2008, 5:07 AM

posting from yesterday.thursday.
asked milk baby to break off all connection with her in 1 hour.
he was so depressed.
hais...
he didn't want to do it I know.we said nothing about this until lessons ended.
school ends at 1.35p.m.
we talked about this problem again.
can tell he is frustrated but I am frustrated too.
saw her and the others at the corridor outside level 1 girls toilet.
some sort of force milk baby to msg her in the school hall.
he was so stress up.
but in the end he still did it.
went off for C.I.P after that.
milk baby bought 4 packets of strawberry pokki there to eat on the way.
but he threw it away went we quarrel on the way the those HDB blocks.
no more pokki for me.sadded.
but we went back to normal when the C.I.P starts.
went to every level with milk baby, jasper & changlong to collect old newspaper and clothes.
collected quite a lot.
hees!
then milk baby & I quarrel again.so sad rite.
then after everything, we walked back to school for our school bags.
milk baby is going home by himself.
he snatch off my bag and we went to the benches at the HDB void deck.
he pushed me around.
and finally he s*** me.
i did cried but stop after a while.
he hugged me back.
hais...went home in a cab with him after that.

today..
rain very heavily in the morning.
assembled in the school hall.
milk baby put his head and looked depressed again when SHE walked pass us with her friends.BTDAY.
hais...
he didn't know that i saw every reaction of his.
then went back to class for lessons.
lessons was as usual.
borrowed huishan's phone during recess time.
msg him using the name of yj.
told him that i need him.i love him.and asked him if he love me.
he said yes I do.
fcuk!
i feel like killing someone immediately.
I was depressed.
friends comforted me. thanks to all who comfort me.
couldn't take it anymore during maths lessons.
went up to him.
wanted to bash him up but i never.
I only pushed him to the ground and ran to the toilet.
after school, we went down to canteen to talk about it.
he said that he knew it all along that I was the one.
it was all a misunderstanding.
hais..i'm just confused.
I don't know if i can believe him.
but I choose to believe.
just because I LOVE HIM.

is he really playing along or he is saying from the bottom of his heart?