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Wednesday, May 21, 2008, 3:00 AM

today is my 10th month with him.
guess what?!
hais.
it wasn't a happy one.
he was late in the morning.
reached at 7.11a.m.
then went to skool hall for assembly.
something happen there that frustrated me that he didn't realised.
in class also..
he promised me to leave her finally.
but my heart feels empty.
i am worried that it is a empty promises again.
i need someone to fill it full for me.
sigh..hais..
i realised that most of my anniversary did not pass happy but sadly.
skool was as usual.
lessons end at 1.35p.m.
he says will accompany dehs.
we stayed in class for about 5mins then he went to call his mom.
he says he don't want to stay in skool for some reason.
but go outside skool.
hais.
in the end we end up sitting at one of the void deck.
we quarrelled.
then he took a cab home with me in it.
he wants to fetch me home first.
but i don't want.
i don't want to go home.
i feel even emptier when i go home.
hais..
who will understand my pressure?
who will even care about me?
he don't seems to care...
the world seems dull.
my future seems bleak.
i called him just now.
he never delete her name and link away.
i wanted him to do so.
i'm getting frustrated again.
we hanged up the call.
he called me back just now and told me that he won't treat me good like the past few days.
perhaps i am also tired of that already.
i am numb.
does it make a differences?
hais.
i have been living in fear everyday.
do you know that?
hais...

happy 10th month together junhao.
i love ue.
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