Loving you. ♥

Sunday, June 1, 2008, 8:56 PM

So many things falls on me lately.
hais...
problem with junhao.
waiting to be solve.
went to tell people about it.
i already tell you don't tell anyone.
but you end up telling 3 people about it.
and think that i am suspicious.
to think that i joke around with this kind of problems.
hais...
right now at this stage you think that i am joking?
i don't know what to say lers.
:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
yesterday called yijie in the evening.
talked to her about problems.
she told me about evrything junhao told her.
our conversaton really lasted for a long time.
i came to know so much things.
i was kept in the dark for such a long time.
hais...
then he called yijie then we end up in a conference with my mouth shut tight.
i heard everything he said to her.
he says that if she wants him to ignore me, he will ignore me.
if she wants him to care me, he will care me.
i feel so much like a toy to him.
she asked him if he loves me.
he says don't like.etc etc.
he just don't understand the pain i'm going through.
i'm like facing it alone.
hais...
just too much things to be type out.
:(((((((((
after the conversation, he called me.
i told him about it.
then he says that he still love me.
so is love or don't love????!!!
is complicated.
i feel that he is just saying that to coax me to do.
cus he told yijie that he don't love me anymore!
:((
but i really feel a lot better after talking to her about this issue.
thanks yijie.
:)))
but what should i do now?
keep or don't keep?
hais...
i'm just extra.