well i didn't know why am i here.
guys have gone for the CO competition.
....
i know i couldn't give in at times.
couldn't agree with you.
couldn't support you.
doing all the silly stuffs is all i know.
just to seek for your attention.
you meant a lot to me.
how i wish you're with me all the times.
passing through each precious moments.
but that isn't possible.
sorry for all this.
i'm sixteen this year.
still in a childish mindset.
i'm worried that my depression will be back.
feeling rather random lately.
i hate the feeling of losing.
and i'm a sore-loser.
all this thoughts is the evidence to show that i'm childish or a sore-loser.
i just wanna keep you by my side.
i seriously love you.
hope you won't abandon me no matter what happens.
for i will be there with you.
i dare not say i'm the best girl you've ever met.
but i hope that you know i'm trying to be one.
i hate it when something goes wrong.
yet it seems to happen all the times.
i feel like a failure in life.
i feel lost.
just like the feeling when a knight lost in a battle.
well, my mood now is so complicated.
i can't describe it exactly too.
but the feeling is seriously bad.
i feel like hugging you now and cry out loud.
i have the sense of giving up at times.
because i like comparing.
and i realised that i'm not as good as others.
what's there to say then.
i want to rely on you physically, mentally and spiritually.
can i?

all these comes from the bottom of my heart.
i'm definitely serious.