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CYBIL WANG MEIZHI
a.k.a. ELMO　红毛怪
officially EIGHTEEN on 161110
Manjusrian
attached to DAMIEN KEE　on 080808

present-EVCO-cello
present-NYP-Nursing
present-NYPCO-cello
ex-MJRCO-cello
ex-Manjusri School
ex-MBSCO-cello
ex-Maha Bodhi School


myBOY
His name is Damien Kee Hong Wai.
He is the only boy who treat me as his precious.
He loves to act cute and he is the cutest boy on earth to me.
He can't be replace by any other guy out there.
He is unique as himself.
and lastly, i love him as the Damien Kee i know.


myBOY&I
We're not as rich as some others.
We're happy to have each other companient.
We love each other as who we are.
We're the opposite party beauty consultant.
We don't quarrel.
We give opinions.
We share what we have.
and lastly, we will be there for each another no matter what happens.


myWANTS
-to spend my entire life with Damien'
-to shot photo album with Damien'
-to go on holiday with Damien'
-to take the ferris wheel with Damien'
-take cello grade 6/grade 8/diploma'
-good result for N'level'
-good result for O'level'
-LG blue ice cream phone'
-my family dinner with Damien'
-a cello of my own'
-pink/silver hard case for cello'
-a new german bow'
-learn bass'
-pink canon digital camera'
-to get tanner'
-a new leather chair'
-to get my hair permed'



myLOVES
♥ my HOMER!'
♥ my cello and his bass'
♥ my family'
♥ myself'


mySLOGAN

-Love myself always.

friends~!

DAMIEN♥
leecheng
phyllis
longhuai
gladys
minhui
tsuting
weilin
huagek
huakim
michelles
samson
meiqing
xueyen
jasper
kokhua
weibin
xinyi
ruiyun
elaine
mindy
junlin
junhao
Hweeteng

credits~!
done by Ma Zai(2009)

blame myself about it..
Monday, March 23, 2009, 5:19 AM

well, where is all the faith, hope and love I've mention previously? I think it is all gone.
I can't deny that I can get really unreasonable sometimes. I really want to be committed but sometimes I really feel that I'm not there. So many girls out there got BF. Compared to me, I feel so lousy and inferior. There are definitely a lot of girls that make a better GF. My ''sickness'' is back. Yesterday, weiqi brought one of his bassist friend to jingshan. She is a girl from temasek polytechnic chinese orchestra. Both weiqi and damien can tell that I look very uneasy when I saw that girl. Okays. I admit that I'm jealous. But jealous because of what? Because my boy says she is pretty or??? Really hate the feeling whenever I feel jealous because it make me feel lousy and inferior. I thought that the feeling of jealousy is long gone ever since I'm with my boy but why did it come back again? Is it because my confidence level has drop to the endless pit that it can't be save? In fact, I'm afraid of being alone again. I'm afraid of being harm again and again. From the past experiences of my relationship, I'm really afraid. No matter how hard damien try to please me and reassuring me the feeling is still there. I think I really need to see a psychiatrist. Oh god. I'm scared. Hug me please.

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