Ms Georgia

Growing up.

2010-02-05T05:07:00.000-08:00

Suddenly I feel that I'm growing up. Don't feel like growing up so quickly. Time passes very quickly indeed. Life in polytechnic is very different like in secondary school. Always have presentation. Those who like to speak in front of everyone, here is you chance. Haha. We did a presentation yesterday doing a case-study on Nanyang Optical. It is our ICA 1. We spoke in front of hundreds of people individually. Oh mine. I was so nervous. The lecturer was damn strict. After the presentation, he will pick one of us to answer questions and marks will be given. At the end of the presentation, the lecturer announced that my group presentation is the best! Haha. Need to wear formal business wear starting from the next presentaion.

Hubby is having practice everyday till 10p.m. at marine parade CC. for the opera performances in March. Even on Saturday and Sunday. Awww...we have lesser and lesser time together. Hate the feeling. Hope that the opera will be over soon and Major Tay will return me my hubby.

Tomorrow is my baby's 23th birthday. At here, I hope that hubby will get into NIE, get his license and be happy always. Little Gerald will hug hug daddy...

Life in NYP...

2010-01-25T19:30:00.000-08:00

It has been quite some time since I last blog. Was pretty busy recently. Jing shan is having meeting very often. Thus, I need to type a lot of minutes then send out to all. Many members seems to be getting bored in Jing shan. And quite a number of them are leaving. Really hope that they will stay. Oh well...I can't stop them. But nevertheless, I will try my best to hold my group together.

The Direct Admission to NYP has started one week ago. We had the leadership and team building camp last monday and tuesday which we have to stay overnight at a campsite in sembawang. It was kinda wulu. Cause it is at the far end. Make a number of new friends. They're all pretty good and friendly except for one or two. Then when we wake up on tuesday, we moved to another campsite at kallang there. We have to play with those height challenger. But they are kind enough to let us choose ourselves if we want to play. But being a sporty person, I took up the challenge. And I pair up with Karen to play. It was kinda scary but fun. Then from last wednesday to friday, we have lesson on communication skill. We even have a test on Friday! Luckily I was well prepared. Cause it stands 20% of our overall marks. And this marks will be reflected in our year end report. Spend my precious weekends with my baby. We went to orchard to date. And we even try the fruit tart! It's damn nice. And sunday, we have meeting at jing shan. Due to my laziness, I still have not touch on the minutes till now. Will do it on wednesday. Haha.

This week, we will be having modules on exploring electronics, first aid on action, introdution of enterprinership and lastly the communication skills. All of which, we have projects and assignment to hand in. We have lesson on exploring electronic yesterday. It was damn bored. I nearly fall asleep. And I went to explore the gym in NYP with Karen. We did a number of workout from different stations and guess what? We are dead tired after gym training. Hope it will be better ahead.

Release of O'level results

2010-01-11T18:49:00.000-08:00

It's a new year of 2010! I'm getting so excited when I thought that I'm going to NYP. Just got back my results yesterday. I got 19 points. Kinda relief. Cause I thought I would be getting all C6 all something like that. And yes! I'm going to my desired course NURSING! Yeah! Finally after so long I'm moving on to tertiary studies. Gonna study hard with baby. The DPA camp is starting next monday. And that campsite is at the far end of sembawang. So damn wu lu. My god. Hope I can make some new friends and survive through...

Pre-Christmas celebration

2009-12-20T23:55:00.000-08:00

Wake up late yesterday morning. Suppose to wake up around 7am cause I'm meeting baby at 8a.m. but end up I wake up at 8.15am. Oh mine. Called baby to ask him to go to Jingshan first as he is holding the meeting. Bath and rush a cab down to Jingshan. Luckily make it on time for the meeting. Meeting start at 9.15a.m. Most of the commitee memebers came. After the meeting, baby and I had our own practice. After which we head down with all the remaining people to Yongshun house for his baby first month celebration. A lot of people turn up. Left around 2.40p.m. and head home as I'm feeling tired and sleepy. Reach home around 3.30p.m. took a bath and rest till 5p.m. Prepare and went out to go with baby to his poly friends gathering cum pre-christmas celebration dinner. Had our dinner at Aston. I'm so disappointed with their food. Don't understand why do they have such long queue every weekends. After dinner, bought a cup of frozen yoghurt from yami. Is kind of milky though. After which we walked around and head home. Tired tired.

Baby loves me!

Pictures all taken by my baby:)

is not the same as the past...

2009-12-18T07:27:00.000-08:00

Cookie boy is given away. Hope he get himself a good and responsible owner. He's a good boy. Let me bid farewell to you. Saying goodbye.

Last Friday made a trip to Nanyang Polytechnic to make my payment for the Direct Admission Pre school programme. Cost around $150. From 18 January to some day in march. Before that went to walk around at Ang Mo Kio Hub. Bought some new accesseries, new clothes and new shoes. Really 大采购! Then saturday went to Tampines mall to watch 《花木兰》 with baby and his friend Shenjian. It was a nice show. Would rate it 4.2/5. It quite touching. But it don't happen in real life. Like baby say, don't take a relationship like a fairytale cause it will never be. I'm fantasizing too much with fairytales. How the princess would live happily ever after with the prince after all the ordeal. Now I know that the day wouldn't come.
Then didn't go to Cheng San practice last sunday due to the sudden overbreak of food poisoning! Baby didn't go too. He came to accompany me and brought me a bottle of the pills. It did help. Slack at home the whole day with baby. Went to have our late lunch at singpost around 4 plus. We had aston. Actually wanted to order the japanese food but it doesn't look appealing enough. Had black pepper chicken and baby had the other type of chicken chop. Forgot about what is it. After that baby bought me a bar of chocolate to munch on. He know I like sweet stuff:) Went to popular to walk around then head home. Baby left around 10.30p.m. He was accompanying me like more than 10 hours. My god.
Then this week tuesday, accompany sister to Orchard for job interview. Glad that she got the job. Hope she will make it big. After that went to walk around at ION Orchard. Meet baby there too. Then we went to walk around together. Bought a new bag from Charles&Keith. Just couldn't resist the temptation. Baby choose it for me. Love it. Cost around $60. Oh well. Continue walking around and got some food(sushi) home. Got baby's favourite triangle rice. Haha. Bought two and other sushi. After that took a bus home. And Wednesday, went to visit my grandparents. Glad that they're doing fine. Love them:) And yesterday, didn't went out. Stay at home. Waiting for baby to come and he bought my favourite bubble tea! Had dinner together near my house here. Today went IKEA with dad and sister to look at some decorations as we're going to do some small renovation to my house and mummy's salon. Need some idea. Head home to rest after that. Went out at 5p.m. to watch my little cousin graduation concert. The children look cute and innocent. Suddenly make me think of myself. Picturing myself in 15 years time.

After all the argurments and explaination, I realise that now is not the same as the past. The past look sweeter and closer. Our conversation that day hurt both of us. But I think that it hurt me more since you're doing most of the talking. I'm sort of speechless yet helpless. Just now I'm looking through the archives. What we had both wrote in our own blog. I start to ask myself what is right and what is wrong. I'm experiencing some flashback recently. I found out that the one next to you isn't me. But I still appreciate it that you love me as a whole. I love the way you hug me that day at the junction of the road. It seems like a tragedy but yet a sweet tragedy. I'm still experiencing the one-day-don't-see-homer syndrome sometimes. What about you? Are you still experiencing the one-day-don't-see-elmo syndrome like you had before?

slacking all the while..

2009-12-07T03:52:00.000-08:00

Secondary school life is finally over. Have been slacking all the while. Haha. Went to Mrs Koh house last saturday. After that took a bus to Punggol Mrt station then off to dhoby ghout. Saturday was quite a terrible day. Shall keep mum about it. Oh well. That's life I suppose.

17th Birthday

2009-11-24T07:04:00.000-08:00

Okays. It has been some time since I last post. O'level was over. And the cello grade exam was over too. What a relief. Phew~ Let me just briefly talk about what happened this few weeks. Had BBQ and camping going on last two weeks. Baby and I were so freaking cold at night that we hug each other very tightly to bed. LOL. But the group of China people wake us up at night by the sound they make. I swear they're freaking noisy. But the BBQ was nice. Everyone that should be there were there. Had fun playing with the young ones. Making ''rocket'' with fireworks. Next day headed to Cheng San CC for the committee meeting. First time doing minutes as secretary. Was worried that I was not able to do it. But luckily I did. Haha. After the meeting, baby and I headed to tampines one to meet up with my CO seniors. Had movie and lunch together. As it was one of their birthday. And it was my birthday the following day. We watched the paranormal activities. I was nice. Quite worth watching. Then on the next day, which is a Monday, 16 Nov, I meet baby at night at marina square. We had our dinner at one of the restaurant there and baby bought me a rich chocolate cake. It was nice and the taste is thick. After which we walked around the shopping mall. Saw a nice beige leather bag there. Cost around $60. Going to buy it soon! Hehe. After that, we headed to the ferris wheel. I enjoyed the whole birthday celebration very much. Thanks baby for planning it so well! Took a cab home from the ferris wheel taxi stand.

Baby, I love love love you!

Pre-birthday

2009-10-27T03:46:00.000-07:00

Is in the process of having O'level now. Had English Paper 1 & 2 yesterday and Maths Paper 1 today. Saw Zijie there. She used to be our school CO pipa player. Graduate 2 years ago. Was quite surprise to see her today. Thought she passed Maths. Cause she has gone to NYP. Oh well. English Paper was quite difficult. Lots of vocabrary. Maths paper was easier. Hope that the O'level exams will end soon. Last paper is on 11 Nov and after which will celebrate my birthday on 16 Nov. So damn looking forward.
Hope to receive: a cake; a diamond ring; the black&gold heels

Wees!

Cadenza Fusion Ensemble!!

2009-10-13T20:30:00.001-07:00

Hey anyone need people to perform for events?
Like dinner, outdoor shows etc.
Contact us at http://www.cadenza.isgreat.org !!!

September holiday had started

2009-09-05T06:54:00.000-07:00

Prelims is finally over. Can take a break finally. Going to prepare for the mock test next. After which, will be the O'level. Had been accepted for the direct admission to NYP nursing course. Which means if I get 26 points or lower for O'level, I will get into the course. Hoho. Finally can get on to tertiary studies after so long in school.

Have not been practicing cello very often lately even though I'm taking the grade exam this year. I'm like so not in the mood to practice. Hai.

Baby, I love you. I wanna hug you to walk through the rest of my life.

concert is over..

2009-08-27T06:38:00.000-07:00

Cheng San annual concert is over. Is such a wonderful night and I guess everyone enjoy the concert. LOL. Couldn't upload the photos onto my blog. Suppose something is wrong. Anyone who wants to see the photos we've taken on that day can view it on my facebook. I load it there..

Having prelim exams recently. English, Mother tongue, Mathematics and Chemistry papers are over. Having geography paper tomorrow. Hope will get the highest again. .

Okays. Let's put exams aside. I lost 3 friends recently over some issues but I've decided to forgo them. Maybe, I shouldn't mix with them in the first place. Anyway, I've got used to the life without them. You guys are right. My definition for friends is different from yours. To me, friends come and go unlike my family members and my boyfriend who is always there for me. Since, you guys have make up your mind, I wouldn't say anything. Well, I believe I will have my own clique of friends soon. Regardless of now or later in poly.

I find that I always want people around me to be happy and I really try to do things to make them happy Recently, baby wish to get a SLR camera. But due to the high cost of the camera, baby can only dream of getting one and can only get one when he starts working. But seriously, I hope that I can fulfill this wish of his.

Baby, can I also wish that you're more attentive? sorry >.<
I want to hear all those things from you and not from my friends.

Going to azubu sabo this Saturday!!!

Seriously hope that my skin condition will get better soon.
Can't eat a lot of food.
-Ginger
-Chocolate
-Nuts
-Seafood
-Chives
-Beef
-Mutton..

Oh my god. So many food can't eat. I suppose I ate something wrongly recently that make my skin condition back again. Super sad.

Happy 1st year anniversary my dearest baby!!

2009-08-08T18:39:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 1ST YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO MY BABY!!
I love you more than anyone would do.
MUACK MUACK!

HAPPY 68TH BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED GRANDPA!!!
I love you too:)

Woah. Is such a happy day. It's both my grandpa's birthday and my 1st year anniversary with my baby!LOL. Will post soon!

Block test is over..

2009-08-04T05:12:00.000-07:00

Hi guys! I'm back to post. It has been some time since I post. I have been busy studying lately to prepare myself for the block test and prelims. And part of the block test result is out. I got highest for Geography and English!! Isn't it something worth happy-ing? Laughs. But but rather disappointed for Social Studies and Maths. I was expecting to get rather good results for my Social Studies. But in the end, I couldn't sustain my marks. I got highest in class for Social Studies the last time. Which was like 11/13. But this time round I was like getting 7/25? Oh my god. I just simply can't believe that is my marks. I have not been failing my Social Studies since last year. And this time round, ziyi got the highest. Argh! I want to win him the next time!! Giggles. Left with physics and chemistry paper now. The results is still not out yet. Didn't pin much hope on chemistry. The paper is too hard for me I swear. If that's the standard for O's, then I think I need to put in triple effort as compared to now. As for maths, I will still practice more. Though it seems to be sort of last minute. But I still got wonderful people like my baby and weiqi around me to help me. Laughs. So I'm still consider myself as lucky. I want to get good results for my O's! Please save me! There is less than 90 days left to O's. So right now, I think I should just focus well on my studies and get into the nursing course with good results although the cut-off point for nursing is the highest among the other course. I still got my BFFs to study with me at times. I think in order to get out of poverty, education is the most important like what teachers said. :)) Have been practicing my cello too lately. Chengsan annual concert is here again. Had sold 9 tickets already. But hope more people will buy the tickets. It is really a concert worth watching. LOL. Sign up for grade taking at NUS too. Getting grade 5 this year. Teacher hope that I will be able to go till diploma. Which I need 4 more years to get it. But right now, I only hope that I will have more time to rest. I'm like getting very tired in the afternoon everyday. GOD PLEASE SAVE ME!!

Hey guys, We're having prelims soon but other than studying, we also need some time to relax.
Why not join me in a Chinese Orchestra Concert now?!

Cheng San Annual concert.

In collabration with the Echoes of the Valley Chinese Orchestra,
esplanade presents

MUSIC IN HARMONY

This concert also invited the Maoli Chinese Orchestra group from Taiwan!

Venue: Esplanade concert hall
Date: 23 august 2009
Time: 5p.m (100mins including 20mins interval)
Ticket pricing: $15/$20

Anyone interested please let me know.
Thank you ;)

Block test tomorrow!

2009-07-26T00:46:00.000-07:00

I'm so stressss!! Tomorrow having block test. My brain is still empty. Having English, Chemistry and Social Studies tomorrow. My god. Got to study now!!

Goodbye Michael Jackson, You live in our heart forever..

2009-07-03T07:06:00.000-07:00

Michael Joseph Jackson
(1958-2009)

D.O.B - 26 august 1958

Goodbye Michael Joseph Jackson.
You're a great artist that inspired people around the world.
Your face, your moonwalk, your Neverland and 45 degrees bend will be remembered by all of us.
Not forgetting the things you had done to make the world a better place to live in.

We miss you badly. May you rest in peace.

我的心里没有他

2009-06-25T19:31:00.000-07:00

我的心里只有你没有他。
你要相信我的情意并不假。
我的眼睛为了你看，
我的眉毛为了你画，
从来不是为了他。

自从那日送走你回了家，
那一天不是我把自己恨自己骂只怪我当时没有把你留下，
对着你把心来挖让你看上一个明白，
看我心里可有他。

我的心里只有你没有他。
你要相信我的情意并不假。
我的眼泪为了你流
我的眼泪为了你擦
从来不是为了他。

自从那日送走你回了家，
那一天不是我把自己恨自己骂只怪我当时没有把你留下，
对着你把心来挖让你看上一个明白，
看我心里可有他。

给纪丰玮。

最近的感触很多。
说也说不完。
以下有一个quiz。
请大家看看！

＊誰可以當男朋友，誰只能當普通朋友。＊
普通朋友：半夜會找妳打BBS聊天到很晚。
男朋友：半夜看妳還在BBS上會趕你下線(當然妳可以柪個幾分鐘)。
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普通朋友：他會找你出去玩,叫妳放棄報告或翹課。
男朋友：他會催妳快寫作業,或者想要跟你討論功課。
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普通朋友：在你生病時，會講好話關心妳。
男朋友：在你生病時，他會關心到你很煩，而且逼你去看醫生。
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普通朋友：他會盡量說好話來討好妳，妳會覺得他很棒。
男朋友：他所說的話，都是關心妳的！但通常像是在命令妳，妳會覺得他幹麻這麼做。
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普通朋友：他什麼事情都會配合著你，只要你高興。
男朋友：他會幫你辨別是非，但你會覺得他管太多。
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普通朋友：他會說他要給你最大的幸福。
男朋友：他只能給你保證，妳跟他在一起，他是最快樂的。
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普通朋友：他會幫你買消夜，送宵夜，載你上下課。
男朋友：他會幫你買宵夜，不過他會提醒你，吃什麼比較健康。
他會載你上下課，不過要他有順路，因為他不能為你而翹課。
因為他翹課，他成績便會不好，成績不好不會有好工作。
那你們將來日子怎麼會好過，他會想的很遠。
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普通朋友：他只有想到現在。
男朋友：他已經預見將來，該怎麼自我努力，好給你幸福。

如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?

如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?

是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開?

是否我已離開了....你才感覺的到我對你的好?

~*~在此祝福全天下所以的有情人都能夠忠誠眷屬~*~

camping & chalet all over. Emotion all mixed up.

2009-06-22T03:49:00.000-07:00

Life is indeed short and unpredictable. We won't know what's going to happen the next minute or even the next second. Let's just cherish all those around us and live life to the fullest.

Had two camping two weeks ago. Had BBQ. Didn't had chance to take photo as it was quite dark over there at East Coast Park. First time is with baby to celebrate our 1oth month anniversary. While the other one is with my sister and cousins they all. Baby came along too. Was quite fun. Enjoy it though. Have a been a good girl practicing the cello as often as I could. Went to Jing Shan chalet last saturday. Had BBQ again. There are a lot of variety of food there. But all can't be compared to my marshmallows! The soft and melting marshmallows. Laughs. Help with the BBQ. The stingray was nice. The satays too. Heard from desmond that the 夏 scores are here. So decided to go back school this coming friday for the sectional practice and to clarify some fingerings for the 雨后庭院. Suddenly feel down when baby talk to his friends there. Went to walk around on my own without telling him. Stood outside the bar listening to the live band performing hoping to cheer myself up but to no avail. Then continue walking around there until baby called me. I didn't pick up his call. Don't know what to say to him too. He missed call me twice. I called home after that to tell dad that my phone is low on batt. If he need to look for me, just call baby's phone will do. Dad then tell me that my mom is not feeling well. Palpitation. Heart beat was about 150. It make me feel down again when I heard that. I hanged the call shortly and baby called me again. I picked up his phone this time round. He asked me where am I and I just tell him about it. Walked back to the BBQ pit after the call. Sat beside him whn i return back. But he was still busily talking to his pals. I walked away again. I sms him and tell him that I went for a walk. I knew he was angry from his reply. But I didn't reply to his message. I went on walking. But this time round, it was slightly different. I cried. I sat on the stage outside the parade asking myself thousands of questions which I don't have the answer to. The feeling was terrible. I walked back to the chalet once again when he sms me and said that we should be getting off. I saw him on my way back and he gave that angry expression. He said nothing and walked back to the chalet. I followed behind asking myself why. I knew that there will be silence on our way back home. I kept mum. I was staying at his house that night. On the way back to his house, I attempt to talk to him. But didn't succeed. When I reached his house, I went to bath and I sms huishan to ask her what should I do. She told me to sms him instead of telling to his face. My good buddy knows that I am not good in words and so I think that will actually work. I sms him telling how sorry I am. After he seen the sms, he gave me a hug and kiss me on my lips. I was relieved with his respond. We watched the autospy before we slept. It wasn't a nice movie though. He shut down the computer before the movie ends as we're both as tired. He gave me a good night kiss and we went to bed. Next morning, I woke up feeling refreshed. He woke up shortly after me. We then start bathing before we are heading to tampines to have our lunch. Then from there we took a bus to downtown east back to the chalet. On our way there, I randomly asked him about his camera as we took quite a lot of photos at the chalet the day before. He opened his bag and search for his camera before passing it to me. Got rather jealous after seeing one of the photo. Was trying to cover up my reaction to the photo and act as if I saw nothing. But he knew I was jealous and he keep probing me. Didn't want to hear his explanation at all when he tried to explain. Went to join the other people when we reached Ehub as they were having their lunch there. After that, the whole lot of us went to watch ''Drag me to hell''. It was a nice and scary movie. He was sitting next to me. Trying to lend me his shoulders as he know that I was scared. I rejected it. The group of us went to the Wild Wild Wet after the movie. The ladies were in their bikinis and the guys in their shorts. Only when we reached there, the staffs tell us that the whole Wild Wild Wet is being booked by the cisco police for their police officers' family day. We were so damn disappointed. I stay quiet all the while. We then decided to head back to the chalet first before deciding where to go. Some of them suggested to go to the facilities room downstairs which include the swimming pool, sauna, Jaccuzzi pool and gym. Each of us has to pay $8.50 for all those facilities. Most of them agreed with the idea except of me and baby. Cause my house here have all these facilities. We then stayed in the chalet until 4 plus then took a cab back to my home. Bath and took a rest. Baby hug hug me and reassured me. Telling me that I'm his one and only and he have chosen me. We will have a bright future ahead. Laughs. Baby had dinner with my family. After which dad send him home at about 10pm.

Love love my baby...

school holiday now!!

2009-06-11T05:26:00.000-07:00

Now is school holiday already. But still need to go back school for remedial etc. My 10th month anniversary with my baby just passed. We went camping at east coast park. BBQ too. Kinda fun. Love to see my baby's face the moment i wake up. The blur blur face he gave me is so sweet.
Love my baby!!
Today is my besties huishan birthday. Went to bendemeer sec sch for dental service with her and end up the water service there is being cut off. Which means we can't do the claening up. We had our breakfast nearby and took bus to bugis to pray and walk around there.

Just did a quiz on What type of guy I need and here's the result -You need a guy like Romeo, someone that will tell you how beautiful you look, or how your smile gives him chills. You're the kind of girl that wants flowers just because, and needs to be reassured how much you're needed often. Stop dating the bad boys! They'll only break your heart when you expect so much from them!

LOVE MY BABY HOMER.
HAPPY 10TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY~

Im finally free to post.

2009-05-29T21:21:00.000-07:00

Yupps. I'm finally back to posting. So lazy to post recently. Is June holiday now. But still have to go back to school for extra lesson. Oh well..Have a lot of self study session with huishan recently. WE WANT GOOD RESULT OF O'LEVELS! Yupps..I want to go to nursing course in NYP in the area of otolaryngology perhaps. Or maybe neurology? But i'm definitely in for genetric. Hoho..Currently at baby house. Going to his friend chalet tonight. Which also means i'm not able to watch the korean drama?!! Gonna rent the whole show to watch it! Having O'level chinese paper on this coming monday. Must die die get a A!! okays. Ending here. I'm going to do my chinese revision already :)

love love.

2009-05-25T04:02:00.000-07:00

I LOVE BABY!!

exams is over; results is back

2009-05-19T21:28:00.000-07:00

okays. just took back my results for Mid-year exams. I only passed 2 subjects. I'm not the only one. I'm just one of them. But i'm disappointed enough. Teacher never say any thing much. (she's too guilty) I guess. Mom and dad keep having PMS lately. My days are terrible. Luckily I still got you, my baby. Last saturday went to East Coast to cycle. Is consider as one of the bonding activities. It was a little bit too rush though. Only 4 people turn up in the end. Which is ME, baby, longhuai and james. I'm the only lady there. i told baby that he had brought 4 hunks out for the outing. (i'm included.) I think i'm man enough seriously. Guys nowadays are like so lady. My god. We cycle to changi village there and had our lunch there. Had ipoh horfun. Just realised that we've run out of time when we leave the hawker. We left 1 hour to the time we need to return the bike. Longhuai couldn't cycle anymore. He fell a few times when baby try to teach him some stunts. (laughs) Then james and I cycle back first to return while baby accompany longhuai to cycle slowly.

tiring~

Rushing!!

2009-05-17T07:20:00.000-07:00

i'm rushing my F&N coursework now!!

I'm leaving CO...

2009-04-27T03:51:00.000-07:00

CO SYF is over last monday. We attained a silver award. Well..though we sustained the award, but we're still disappointed. Those who went to listen to the results should know. So many schools got gold. We're one of the few which got silver. Anyway, it's over. Had school anniversary performances on last friday. Took some photos with the cello&bass section. Will miss every of them loads. Every one of them contribute to this group. I wish them all the best.

Ruiming-Too inplusive at times. But effort is there. As long as she practice more, she will see

improvement in no time.

Kekgee-Though learning is slower but begins to show interests and is improving. Quite well

mannered and show respect to seniors.

Pingting&Hongrui-Always put CO second and studies first. If only she/he can show more

interest and be more enthusistic.

Eugenia-Fast learner and show interests. If more effort is put in, she will see improvement in no

time too.

Liuhao-Always skip lessons. Irresponsible. Show no improvement lately.

Zixiang-A moderate learner. Arrogant at times.

That's about them. Had my last performances with them at ngee ann city civic plaza there. There's a feeling of...leaving behind them. Just doesn't feel good. Hope will have chance to perform with them again. =/

Going to miss them loads!!

Changing for the better :)))

2009-04-17T06:18:00.000-07:00

SYF is coming next monday. I'm sort of nervous. I really, seriously want to brush up on my cello skills. Sigh*. After learning for 9 years, my standard is like still so low. Kind of demoralising. I'm interested in bass too. Waiting for my baby to teach me...Desmond is so happy today just because kaiwen allows him to go jingshan. Laughs. Awwww..I am feelng inferior and disappointed. I always have the thought that people are comparing me. My god. I can get so frustrared and fed up easily. Well, after much thought for the past few days I realised that in order to last long with my baby, 15% depends on appearances, 20% depends on communications and the other 65% depends on compromising, being understanding etc. I'm still trying to be understanding. I know I can do it. Baby, give me a hug of encouragement. You've been a wonderful boyfriend to me. I love you:)

Happy 8th month anniversary my dearest baby!!

2009-04-13T04:20:00.000-07:00

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HAPPY 8TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO MY DEAREST BABY!
Let me start off from last friday which is also the good friday. Meet baby at bedok interchange there then had our breakfast together there at the hawker and after that we went to my grandparents' house. Reached there at around 12noon. Play with my cousins and also to see how my grandparents are doing after they have moved. Went off at around 3 plus and took bus 7 from bedok interchange to go to orchard. Was raining cats and dogs when we reached orchard and we changed to bus no. 36 and alight at shaw house there and walked to far east plaza to walk around. After that, as agreed I brought baby to Good Wood Park hotel to have the DURIAN FEAST! My baby is a die-hard fan of durian! Treat him to eat there to celebrate our 8th month anniversary. Some photos were taken.( On top) (Picture 1-Durian Pudding, Picture 2-Pandan, Durian and Coconut cake, Picture 3-Durian Puff, Picture 4-Oreo Durian cake, Durian crepes and Durian-Chocolate Hazelnut Tart, Picture 5-Combined photo)
We also ordered their specialities coffee. I ordered blue mountain and baby ordered Jamica Arabica. My god. Mine taste so mild but it smell really nice and baby's coffee taste heavy and it smell nice too. I'm so addicted to coffee! After that we went back to far east plaza to shop. Baby bought 2 new pairs of trousers. One white pants and a jeans. It definitely look nice on him. Baby accompany me home after that.

Saturday-Had CO combined practice in school. SYF is coming soon. We're practicing like mad. Meet baby at Eunos after his car lessons. Took bus 2 to bedok and had our brunch there and then took bus 9 to his house after that and slack. Went out at around 5p.m. to go tampines one. The new shopping mall. Was hoping to get some new clothes or accessories there. But sadly, nothing caught my eyes there and the shop there isn't what I usually go. Is quite disappointing. Took bus 10 to simei and change to bus 17 to go bedok blk 85 the hawker there to have our dinner. Baby treat me eat BBQ stingray and sotong and I bought the BBQ mussels. All taste good to me. Takeaway satay beehoon and grilled chicken wings as dinner for dad and mom. Dad came bedok to fetch me and baby home after that. ~

Sunday-Had CO practice at cheng san. Baby came paya lebar here to meet me and we went cheng san together. Takeaway pancakes and chee cheong fan there to eat as we're running late and is raining. Practice was alright. Not much people came due to Easter day. Practice ended at 2p.m. and had our lunch together with longhuai and weiqi they all. Took a cab home with baby and longhuai cause is raining again and we both brought our own cello there. Baby came to my house and accompany me until 6 plus then go off cause sister and me had to accompany mom to Mt Elizabeth Hospital to get admitted for the surgery on Monday. Was pretty late when we reached home at night. Around 10 plus. Dad brought me, sister and jiawei to the vietnam restaurant to have our dinner there and went home after that.

LOVE MY BABY!! WE'RE GOING TO LAST LONG! WEES!

hug hug my baby =(

2009-04-05T19:32:00.025-07:00

so much things happened recently. I hope that everything will go smoothly. well, today went to jingshan for practice. Honestly speaking, I do feel attached to jingshan after the last concert. I miss the practice after every sunday and look forward for the next practice. There ain't a lot of time there for us to practice every week. I do hope that the practice will be slightly longer. But apart from that, I do practice on my own. About everyday for 3hrs unless I got something on that day. Well, there's something I do not wish to reveal. But baby I want you to know that no matter what, I'll be there for you. I may not understand the pain you go through losing such a good buddy. But from now on, let's hold our hand tight and go through this together! After what baby said at jingshan, i'm sure the members do feel the need to bond with each another. After the practice, baby came to my house and stay for dinner and after which, my dad send him home. HUG HUG MY BABY TIGHT TIGHT!!

HOMER BABY, I'M HERE FOR YOU!!!

blame myself about it..

2009-03-23T05:19:00.000-07:00

well, where is all the faith, hope and love I've mention previously? I think it is all gone.
I can't deny that I can get really unreasonable sometimes. I really want to be committed but sometimes I really feel that I'm not there. So many girls out there got BF. Compared to me, I feel so lousy and inferior. There are definitely a lot of girls that make a better GF. My ''sickness'' is back. Yesterday, weiqi brought one of his bassist friend to jingshan. She is a girl from temasek polytechnic chinese orchestra. Both weiqi and damien can tell that I look very uneasy when I saw that girl. Okays. I admit that I'm jealous. But jealous because of what? Because my boy says she is pretty or??? Really hate the feeling whenever I feel jealous because it make me feel lousy and inferior. I thought that the feeling of jealousy is long gone ever since I'm with my boy but why did it come back again? Is it because my confidence level has drop to the endless pit that it can't be save? In fact, I'm afraid of being alone again. I'm afraid of being harm again and again. From the past experiences of my relationship, I'm really afraid. No matter how hard damien try to please me and reassuring me the feeling is still there. I think I really need to see a psychiatrist. Oh god. I'm scared. Hug me please.

i'm back

2009-03-22T17:45:00.004-07:00

It has been weeks since I last post. My god. Now having F&N lesson now. Will post soon. :)))))

A poet to my dearest's love

2009-03-04T19:58:00.000-08:00

A Poet To My Dearest's Love

An old silver church in a forest
Is my love for you.
The trees around it
Are words that I have stolen from your heart.
An old silver bell, the last smile you gave,
Hangs at the top of my church.
It rings only when you come through the forest
And stand beside it.
And then, it has no need for ringing,
For your voice takes its place.

sob sob :((((((

2009-03-02T05:18:00.000-08:00

Everyone of my mother side rushed down to my grandparents's house today fearing that my grandpa couldn't make it. The sight of him struggling makes my heart aches. My cousin and I cried. A lot of things flashed through our mind at that point of time. How he used to dote on us. How he used to trust us etc. We won't forget everything he do. Yvonne hugged me. We're scared. If god can only make one of my wishes come true, then I want my grandpa to get well and be with us. Please don't leave us.

I'm at the lowest point in my life.

allowances deducted!

2009-02-19T18:24:00.000-08:00

I'm in school now. Suppose to be doing my F&N coursework now. But I end up blogging. Mom deducted my allowances last night. My god. I swear that I'll be very very broke this week. Was in a foul mood yesterday ever since I was talking to baby. Actually wanted to go to katong with him for dinner tonight then go walk walk. But end up he's having company dinner tonight. It just spoils my mood TOTALLY. He can tell from my tone that I'm very frustrated. Then he like don't know what to say to me $%#*&%%*^&@*&$% I was waiting for you to coax me. But end up you hang down the phone cause you said that you are busy doing the web. Wanted to talk to you cause I couldn't sleep but you're having a headache and want to go to bed.
Maybe I just don't understand at all what you guys are thinking in the head.
I know I shouldn't say you as if you're a sinner.
Well, I want to give up RIGHT NOW!

Can I cry?
Hug my elmo :(

Happy Valentine's Day!

2009-02-14T07:12:00.000-08:00

me with my valentine's day gift from baby!

me and baby at Gloria Jeans cafe

my ice cream cake ;)

Happy valentine's day to all my readers! I'm soooo soooooooo happy today. Guess what baby got for me for valentine's day? A ELMO tissue holder! and he wrapped it into...like a bouquet of flowers. Today wake up early and had a quick bath. Put on make up and off I go to CDC. Took bus 7 to eunos mrt there to change bus. Took a long time before bus 51 came. And a guy keep talking to me. I don't know what is he talking about. Well, when i reached the bus stop outside CDC, baby is already there at the bus stop. Then we took bus 87 opposite to go bedok for breakfast as both of us are rather hungry. Ate wanton noodles at bedok interchange the hawker there and fried wanton! Had a very filling breakfast but I didn't manage to finish the noodles. After that took bus 9 to baby's house. Had our usual routine. Fall asleep on his bed. Hoho. His elder brother came home. Baby's mother says that his elder brother girlfriend came to their house just now and left before I woke up. Was quite curious about how she looks like. HAHA. ok. I shouldn't be so kay-poh. Baby bought me a valentine's day cake. Is a ice cream cake from swenson. So sweet of my baby. Shouldn't have say that you're a wood-block. Sorry baby. I take back my words ok. Took train down to orchard in the afternoon around 3.30p.m. Walked around there. Intend to take neoprints at cineleisure. But too many people already and the queue is long. So we end up walking around there. Intend to take the neoprints tomorrow. Walked to far east plaza after that. Baby says there is a japanese restaurant there and we intend to have our dinner there. But to our horror the shop is so damn small and the queue is so damn long larhs. I know baby bring me there because he knows that I like japanese food. But the queue is so long. We might be spending hours waiting for our turn. So I asked baby to give up and go other places to eat. Baby says that he will bring me there again in one of the school days so that it won't be so pack. Love my baby to the max! MUACKS! Did anyone got goosebumps reading this? Obviously I'm trying to show how much I love my boy. Other girls please shoo off. He is mine for this lifetime. I LOVE YOU MY BABY! Walked to paragon after that to look for our dinner as we are all so hungry. We didn't have our lunch. End up, we had our dinner at ThaiExpress. The food is quite nice but is spicy. Thanks baby for the dinner treat! Walked around at takashimaya after our dinner. And we took bus 7 back home as we're both sooo soooooooo tired today. Tomorrow still need to wake up early to go cheng san for practice. Oh god. I'm getting shag. Huge eyes bags and puffy eyes! Need to apply more eye cream. Ending here!

Baby, how could I not love you?

let's cherish the time we have.

2009-02-11T04:13:00.000-08:00

Well, I'm in a foul mood today I should say. Actually intend to visit my grandpa at the hospital with baby yesterday but he was discharged yesterday afternoon and end up baby came over to my house for dinner. Cause my dad is cooking chicken rice for dinner. We went to Eastpoint popular bookstore to get the storybook. The devil and miss prym. Forget to take the popular card from xinyi. If not I can deduct around $2 per book. I help huishan and lena to get the books too. Cause they couldn't find it at borders. Keep on telling baby that i want to eat the chocolate waffles at the bread shop there. And end up baby went to get it for me and I went to popular first. I got myself bubble tea before going into popular. Baby was angry with me when he saw me with the cup of bubble tea. :((((((( and he ate half of the waffle and gave me the other half. Cause he said that if I eat too much of these junk food, I won't have appetite for dinner later on. After that, went to baby's house to put down his bag before going back to my house for dinner. From eastpoint to his house and from his house to my my house, we talked less than 10 sentences. Baby hold my hand though. I can tell that he was very angry. On our way to the bus stop at his house there, I tried to explain to him twice. But baby ignored me. Then when we were on the bus, I weeped silently. Fearing that he won't forgive me and that he is still angry with me. I'm also afraid that history will repeat. The emotional scars won't heal even as years passed by. I've experienced it before and that scars is still there. I won't forget it for a lifetime I guess. We walked home from the bus stop remaining silently. After the dinner, baby watched tv with my parents while I'm still feeling distracted over what had happened just now...baby left shortly at around 10.40p.m. and I went to sleep after that.
Today wake up early in the morning. Feeling very un-refreshed. Cause I didn't get a proper sleep last night. School was as usual. Had F&N lessons. About to finish my research area soon. Hope that I can finish it soon. Awwww..I'm feeling so sick after what happened last night. Asked baby to call me during recess time cause I got a lot to talk to him. But when he called me, I'm suddenly lost at words. I don't know what to say. But baby's tone is a bit harsh :((((((( was in a foul mood after the phone call. Shouted at my classmate when he tried to play with my hair. SORRY! After that baby sms me and said that he still love me. oh..after school went outside school with lunch with my classmates and waited for xinyi and weijing to go to CO..going to stop here. Having bad flu and fever.

baby, sweet talk me and melt my heart please.

feeling down..

2009-02-09T01:26:00.000-08:00

kinda short of cash lately..eagarly waiting to get my new computer. Damien is so busy recently. I'm feeling so lonely. Oh god. Accompany him to esplanade yesterday for his CNY performances and accompany him for dinner at marina square. I was feeling very randomly while he was talking to taurus. We walked back to esplanade together. He left me at the esplanade mall escalator. He couldn't hear me calling him and he walked off to his holding room. I was feeling frustrated. With that feeling, i took the bus back home from the esplanade. He sms me when I was on the bus and tell me to let him know when i left esplanade. But I left there without telling him. I was feeling down at the time. I replied his sms with some nonsense. He called me but I didn't take up his call. I was feeling empty. I was thinking that if he called me again, i will pick up his call. But he didn't call back the second time. I replied his sms with some nonsense again. I didn't know why i'm doing that. I alight from the bus and walked back home after that. Suddenly i have the urge to visit my grandpa at the hospital. I went back home to bath before heading to the hospital. I took a cab down to the hospital. Some of the things just flash through my mind. I still remembered how my grandpa would accompany me when i was young. Bring me out for a walk. He will bring me anywhere he goes. I was never lonely with him around me. That second, i realised that i was weeping on the cab. When I reached the hospital, i saw him lying there. He was as lonely as me. I talked to him. He only understands cantonese and our conversation become lesser. Cause my cantonese is limited. He told me that he is hungry. But the doctor says no food and drink is allowed. I didn't know why. I stayed there with him until around 9.30p.m. and I went to the convenient store and buy a cup of mashed potato. I'm hungry too. Took a cab back home after that as it was getting late. Reached home at around 10p.m. Called Damien on the phone. I feel like talking to him. I'm still feeling down. I feel empty deep down...
Today had breakfsat with winnie. Still having school as usual. Was very tired. F&N is getting interesting. I keep telling Elaine that something is leaking inside me and she don't understands what I'm talking about. So, forget it. My period just started and it nearly stained my skirt(laughs)...back to the topic. I have the urge to finish my coursework fast and furious. I can't let afifah win me this time round. I want back my top 1 position for F&N. I have the feeling that she wants to compete with me. I can tell and i hate the feeling that she wins me at the coursework component last year. Have been slacking a lot last year and also due to my ex-bgr. I'm going to buck up this year. Going to pass my O's with flying colours! I need motivation! Went to bubble tea after school and karan told me that she saw handsome guy. And that guy turns out to be ruiyun boyfriend. She was like saying that ruiyun and her boyfriend are not compatible and things like that. She then asked me if that guy is a ah beng and I told karan that he's a poly student and that he is very happy with ruiyun. So that to let karan know that that guy is taken. Don't have designs on him.(laughs) Went parkway parade with karan and huishan after school. Initially, I didn't want to go. But that huishan(auntie yeo) keep asking me to go. Then give her face and tag along. Karan went there to look for valentine's day gift and she got her boyfriend a tie in the end. Hope that she will be able to tie down her boyfriend with that tie.(giggles) It just reminds me that I haven't get anything for my baby. OH GOD! Can I hide in an extra large gift box and give it to you as a valentine's day gift?(laughs) going to stop here. Have to continue with my work already..

some of the things you said just irks me. -,-
i'm going to survive on cup noodles everyday. I'm getting broke. :(((((((

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!! MUACKS!

2009-02-07T05:22:00.000-08:00

the cotton candy is bigger than my head!

our sweet sweet moment...

look into my eyes..

me and baby along the singapore river..

my baby!!!

oh my god! did anyone see my dark eye ring and puffy eyes!? Classmates thought that i put on eyeshadow to school. That's very bad. Getting tired; fatigue. Keep on falling asleep in class. But i sleep early at night. I don't know why also. Lots of class tests is also coming up. Having problem with my mathematics and combined science. These are all my weak subjects. I really hope i can do well in the tests and exams. I did put in my effort. I did study. Just hope that my effort will be paid off. I have been stuying social studies like mad. Cause i seriously don't understand what Mr Hafiz is teaching. Is so different from Mdm Ernie. Chapter on Venice. Well, i didn't do well in CO too. I've always thought that i've been very committed and that i'm doing well. But this wasn't the case at all..hais. I getting so moody because of that. I realised that i'm not as committed as before in school CO. Just hope that the new group will do better than the current one.

Let me just skip all these crap and talk about yesterday. Yesterday is my baby 22nd birthday. (HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY! I LOVE YOU!)

But he is performing at esplanade and for the next straight two days too. Bought a chocolate cake for him and some gifts of course. Took the cake to esplanade to look for him. Celebrated at the outdoor space. His colleages from MDC and Zheng lao shi joined in too. To me, it was a simple yet warm heartening moments. But sadly the cake is such a disappointment :((((((( waited for him to go home together after his performances and he send me home around 10 plus and we departed after that..

Today went over to his house in the morning as usual. Was slacking throughout and we went to the hospital to visit grandpa in the afternoon. He was hospitalised again :(((( went to east point for lunch after that. We talked about Taurus while eating. Baby was asking about my views. When i first heard about his girlfriend, it reminds me of myself when i was with that bastard. It took me so long to actually open myself up. I can understand how she feels. Until i meet my baby, everything change! Baby loves me. (laughs) Took train to cityhall after the meals as he is performing tonight. It was still early when we reached esplanade. It was around 4pm only and we decided to take a stroll along the Singapore river there. Took tons of photos there (the pictures is at the top of the post). And we went our own way after that..baby put up a marvallous performances tonight! going for my dinner now.

Feeling so loved by you my baby!
love you my beloved baby.

tired tired tired!

2009-01-29T00:27:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! Oh... i'm really tired these days. I'm either working or studying. I'm looking shag lately. This year got lesser hongbao money compared to the last few years. i'm so in need of money and at the same time, i'm so so so deprived of sleep. zzZZzzzZZz. Baby came to my house on the first and second day of chinese new year and had dinner with my family on both days. Hahas. He tried to bribe my mom and dad by all those sweet talks and foods. lols. Hmm...next friday is baby's 22nd birthday already. Can someone give me some ideas of how to plan the birthday?? I want to watch movie also. The DA XI SHI and the XING FU WAN SHUI. Heard them saying that it is quite nice. lols. Elaine keep asking me to watch with her tomorrow. But i'm going for CO sectional practice. I can't skip anymore practice. I need to work harder to make sure that i have the standard of a SL. Went for a run today and did some workout at the gym in school. Mr keith thought that i'm a school runner and comment that i'm sporty. hahas. Going for more sunbath to keep myself tanned. Must win Mr Homer! Keep falling asleep this two days in class. Cause was rushing here and there from school to work. School in the day and work in the night. Luckily i told Kelly mummy that i can't work anymore. Cause i really can't cope with the school work like that and i think school work is more important. Going to stop here and revise my work already. Tata~

wees! let's look forward for this saturday activity.

seriously sick!!

2009-01-15T05:55:00.000-08:00

have been such a long time since i post.
well, i'm seriously sick today!
couldn't sleep the whole night yesterday.
keep turning here and there.
my stomach is upsetting me.
dad wake me up at 6.30a.m. to go school.
but end up, i fall back to sleep.
cause i was feeling really bad.
sleep until 11am then dad brought me to see doctor at bedok north there.
then the doctor says that i've got some virus in my tummy.
and i feel stomach cramping and aching, whole body muscles ache and etc.
end up the doctor gave me a lot of medinice.
after that, went bedok interchange there cause dad wants to walk around and we went home at around 1.30p.m.
bathe and get change and dad fetch me to grandma house.
was slacking at her house the whole afternoon until i realised that there's blood in my urine!
oh my god.
it really scared me.
baby came to my grandma house to look for me and we went to the clinic to see the doctor again.
and this time round, the doctor asked me to go for a urine test.
and end up the plastic cup is full of blood.
holy.
damn pain.
after which, baby and i went to the interchange again as he wants to bank in his cheque and buy some preserve food.
and baby accompany me home after that...

glad that you like the puzzle. Love you. Hugs~

not happy...

2009-01-09T18:26:00.000-08:00

i don't want to post.
i'm moody.

cello concert @ esplanade.

2008-12-27T20:57:00.000-08:00

was slacking at my baby's house yesterday morning till afternoon.

took bus 2 and walked to raffles city there and hunt for the green tea ice cream and SALMON!

end up spending twenty over dollars for salmon!

hahas.

meet up with group mates at cityhall there to go for the cello concert at esplanade by Loke Hoe Kit.

then headed to esplanade for the concert.

the recital hall was small.

the concert start shortly after we entered.

was quite surprised that the cellist wore a sunglasses when he came out.

and he took it off after the first song is played.

holy!

he apply make up!

eyeliner, eye shadow, rosy red cheek and lips!

he looks like some gay.

hahas.

after all, did learn something from the concert.

some fingering skills.

he got the technique.

but sadly, he is too stiff.
he just won't move a bit while playing to make it a bit lively.

i personally think that he can't get himself into the song he played.

unlike yo-yo ma who can make himself get into the song and play out the feeling.

perhaps he is too young and is lack of experiences.

after the concert, longhuai left first.

the rest of us went to the food court at marina square to have our supper.

and after that, baby sent me home.

took a lot of photos on the way!

love homer...

what a scary experience this morning...phew!

is not happy at all..

2008-12-26T07:26:00.000-08:00

well, christmas had just passed.
should i say a BELATED MERRY CHRISTMAS!
hahas.
wasn't very happy for the past few days.
skin problem arise then keep got scolded for nothing...

went to grandparents house with baby on christmas day.
but grandma ain't around.
left at 2 plus.
took bus to amk hub to buy ticket for the 'Bedtime Stories' with baby
and we went for lunch at sumo house.
baby ordered me a plate of salmon!
wo de zui ai!
hahas.
love ya...
went to watch the movie after that.
it was a bad movie.
isn't worth watching at all.
though it seems to be a comedy.
will rate it 2.1/5.
...
yesterday was alone at home the whole day.
watched all the hongkong drama on channel 55 and channel 255.
was sort of bored.
went out to walk around and got myself mcflurry!
hehes.
so damn craving for ice cream and frozen yogurt.
and i also crave for SALMON!
wo de tian ah.
i want SALMON, SALMON AND MORE SALMON!

TODAY...
going for the cello concert with my whole cello bass group later at esplanade.
hopefully we can learn something from it.

10 days never post...

2008-12-17T19:09:00.000-08:00

hello back.
i had not been posting for the past 10 days already.
was quite busy this whole week.

monday was having the CO recording at the republic polytechnic there.
homer was there to help out too.
had our lunch nearby after we unload the instruments back to the CO room.
then we took bus no 51 down to the Sheng Shiong supermarket to buy our stuff for our chalet on tuesday and wednesday.
bought a lot of stuffs.
and the bill came out to $112.40.
hahas.
after that we departed..

tuesday is our school CO chalet at the costa sand there.
me, lionel and desmond are in charge of the chalet.
we prepared a lot of food.
from curry to jelly to rice to noodles to beehoon and so on...
it is suppose to be a bonding chalet and end up those who turn up are those who are very good friends which does not refer to the purpose of our ''bonding chalet''
was slacking in the chalet while the others were playing manjong or out for other activities.
kinda tired after all those preparation.
and as night time approached, more people start leaving.
left all those commitee members and ruiyun's bf.
was hoping that Damien could come faster.
but he's having practice for his next day performances.
homer reached the chalet at 11 plus.
and at last, there were only 10 people staying overnight plus homer.
me and homer were the first to sleep.
the others went bowling until 3.30am in the midnight.
hahas.
guess what?
when me and homer wake up in the next morning which was wednesday morning, the others were all lying on the floor trying to take a rest.
only me and homer were feeling energetic from the sleep.
and so, we got change and went for breakfast at mac.
after that, we departed on the train.
reached home at around 10.30am.
dad was preparing to go out.
and i am alone at home.
saw the letter from SYCO.
i wasn't enlisted.
hais....
fallen asleep on my bed after a big cry of my failure.
wake up at only 2p.m.
went to take a bath, makeup and went out to meet yaohong and huishan for lunch at amk hub.
we were gossiping here and there.
my nick papa is back to malaysia.
mama yaohong is missing him already..
hahas..
took the train to yio chu kang with the two girls to meet up with my CO friends to go nanyang polytechnic to watch the CO concert..
after the concert, had supper at amk there with my aiai, yaohong and huishan.
and we departed after that.
homer took bus 24 with me and we departed at paya lebar there...

today..
is me and homer big day!
i'm waiting for my N'level results and it will be out today!
while homer will be having his final motor test to see if he will pass.
hahas.
wish us good luck!

love damien!
hehes.
muacks.

love you!

2008-12-08T06:19:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 4TH MONTH WAI-SEKMAO!
love you so much.
HUGGIES!

i'm at fault..

2008-12-05T09:47:00.000-08:00

three days never post already.
but compare to before, i did post more often.

wednesday..
didn't go for CO practice.
went for the Child Aid concert at night at NUS with guy.
hahas.
the performances is great.
professional musicians at such a young age.
inspire me.
took bus 7 from clementi interchange after that to go home.
reached home at about 11.30p.m.

thursday(yesterday)..
wasn't at home the whole day.
wake up early in the morning.
had breakfast with daddy.
was crapping with him the whole day.
realised that he got thousands of fish in his 8 fish tanks in total.
cause his fish keep reproducing.
OMG!
daddy can be open a aquarius already.
hahas.
after that we went east coast park to cycle.
start raining while we were taking a break along the beach.
again we start crapping for an hour plus!
we can be crapping king and queen already.
lols.
then return our bike and dad brought me to see my cello casing!!
yippie!
finally can get my casing already.
got a silver casing.
hehes.
went home to take a bath first before going out to get my new watch at raffles city.
meet homer at paya lebar after that.
and had our own time.
shouldn't say in detail.
hahas.
love you..

friday(today)..
wake up early in the morning then receive the sms he send me.
well, i know i'm at fault.
i will change for the better.
sorry..
felt much better after a big cry.
and now posting..

homer, i know i'm at fault about these.
i will change for the better.
thanks for being at my side throughout.
simply love you.

sick in mind.

2008-12-02T22:53:00.000-08:00

well i didn't know why am i here.
guys have gone for the CO competition.
....
i know i couldn't give in at times.
couldn't agree with you.
couldn't support you.
doing all the silly stuffs is all i know.
just to seek for your attention.
you meant a lot to me.
how i wish you're with me all the times.
passing through each precious moments.
but that isn't possible.
sorry for all this.
i'm sixteen this year.
still in a childish mindset.
i'm worried that my depression will be back.
feeling rather random lately.
i hate the feeling of losing.
and i'm a sore-loser.
all this thoughts is the evidence to show that i'm childish or a sore-loser.
i just wanna keep you by my side.
i seriously love you.
hope you won't abandon me no matter what happens.
for i will be there with you.
i dare not say i'm the best girl you've ever met.
but i hope that you know i'm trying to be one.
i hate it when something goes wrong.
yet it seems to happen all the times.
i feel like a failure in life.
i feel lost.
just like the feeling when a knight lost in a battle.
well, my mood now is so complicated.
i can't describe it exactly too.
but the feeling is seriously bad.
i feel like hugging you now and cry out loud.
i have the sense of giving up at times.
because i like comparing.
and i realised that i'm not as good as others.
what's there to say then.
i want to rely on you physically, mentally and spiritually.
can i?

all these comes from the bottom of my heart.
i'm definitely serious.

phew! finish at last...

2008-12-01T06:28:00.000-08:00

it has been more than a week since i post.
shall not post about what happened for the past one week.
well, today is my big day.
going for the SYCO audition today.
mom wake me up early in the morning as usual.
went to my buy some stuff with dad and mom after fetching sister to work.
was kinda tired although i slept at 12mn last night.
is like so long never turn in so early already.
omg!
i look like zombie now a days.
hahas.
went to my grandparents house after that.
things have been happening there lately.
hais..
shall not enclose my family matters here.
reached home at about 2 plus.
practice my cello to prepare myself for tonight audition.
took a nap after that.
just to make sure i'm at my perfect condition tonight.
hahas.
went out at 6p.m. and headed to SCH.
was feeling very very tense.
had my dinner near by.
went in to prepare myself after that.
tune my cello etc.
saw a lot of familiar faces.
most of them went for the march audition.
was kinda disappointed with my performance.
didn't reach my expectation.
hais...
went home after that..

i realised that i have changed a lot after knowing you.
i love you homer.
thanks for being there for me when i need you.

homer, i love you.

2008-11-23T07:20:00.000-08:00

yesterday, spend the whole day at cheng san.

practice my cello for the up coming audition while waiting for homer.

well, the Singapore Youth Chinese Orchestra audition for cello is next monday.

i'm kinda nervous.

though i did practice nearly everyday.

but still not confident for the set piece.

hais..

some more there will be sight reading.

that gonna kill me instantly.

let me burn the music scores and drink it.

hopefully i will remember everything.

stress!

must take one yoyo-ma poster and stick it next to my bed and pray to it everyday to make sure everything turns out well on that audition day.

today wake up early again.

working for lunch time at shin yeh.

is kinda tiring.

one people looking after 4 VIP rooms.

and there's so many people.

as if the food is free.

went to homer house to look for him after work.

he is having a bad headache since morning.

hugs my baby.

guess he didn't get enough rest.

had our dinner together at eastpoint.

hahas.

he finally get to eat his grilled lamb chop.

i must admit that it's nice.

went back to his house after dinner.

saw his niece crying cause her mum went home.

went to coax her.

and took some photos with her and homer.

stayed at his house till 9p.m. and went home.

this is me and my baby..

this is damien's niece and me..

simply love my damien :))))

baby, i know i've been saying negative things about you lately. i know it will affect your mood somehow. i know i'm being selfish. saying things like you're not as thoughtful as before etc when i know that you've tried your best and do your best. i'm like still blaming you or like not statisfied. but in fact, i'm happy with you. baby listen to me. i seriously love you. looking back, the effort you have put in to plan my birthday, the way you treat me, the way you protect me should have already convince me that you're doing your best. i'm sorry baby. i shouldn't have say all those negative things. in fact, i should feel grateful to you for accepting who i am and not the one you want me to be.

3 words. 8 letters. 1 meaning.

I LOVE YOU.

today is my birthday!

2008-11-16T06:40:00.000-08:00

well today is my birthday.

this is the birthday cake homer got for me yesterday.

is nice ok.

hahas.

strawberry heart shaped cake.

first time celebrating my birthday with a cake.

this year ate 5 birthday cake already.

guess i must have put on a lot of weight.

must go for jogging already!

today is sunday.

went to shin yeh to work again.

so ''命苦''.

birthday still have to work.

work for lunch shift only.

then homer came to look for me after his CO practice at cheng san.

then end up damien, yaohong, demi, nick, qiaohan, xiaoying and junyao celebrate my birthday for me at mac.

they got me a black forest cake.

oh my god.

sinful.

extremely sinful.

hahas.

after the celebrating, those guys went back to work while me and homer went off.

went to homer house to slack.

had my dinner with him.

enjoy spending the time with him..

loves..

homer, elmo love you always.

may our love lasts till the last winter ends...

1 more day to my birthday...

2008-11-15T20:36:00.000-08:00

is one more day to birthday.
hahas.
i'm counting down..
last saturday is my 3rd month anniversary with baby.
went to suntec city.
catch a movie the Coffin then had our lunch at muthu's curry.
well the food isn't spicy enough.
we had crab meat, lady's finger and mutton curry.
after that we went to walk around to look for his friend birthday gift.
spotted a earring and he bought that.
had dessert at azubu sabo!
so happy.
ordered a rum wine for homer and i got the sweet potato with green tea ice cream and the red bean paste with the glutinous puff.
is nice just that it is too sweet..
went to pasir ris to attend homer friend birthday party with him.
we left after staying there for 3 hour plus as we were both very tired.
went home separately after that..

then sunday slack at home in the morning.
force to practice cello because of...
well i should keep mum.
hahas.
bought a new phone.
Nokia supernova range 7210.
is white and pink.
simply love it..
guess that's the birthday gift i got for myself this coming birthday..
meet up with homer at liang court after that to go shin yeh.
then went home separately again at night...

monday to thursday i shouldn't post.
cause nothing much to write about.
was working...

then yesterday, yingyue and accompany came to liang court to look for me.
they came at 1 plus and waited for me at mac till 3 plus for my break time.
i didn't know they're coming.
guess why they came to look for me?!
to celebrate my birthday with me!
yingyue birthday is on the 15 nov and mine is on the 16 nov.
just one day apart.
they bought me birthday gift each.
sorry yingyue didn't prepare yours.
didn't know you're coming to look for me.
no worries.
i will give you your belated birthday gift on next coming friday when you go back school for practice.
they also bought me a extremely sinful chocalate cake to celebrate with me.
we cut the cake at mac and ate it.
gave some to my collagues too.
but we still can't finish it.
then end up yingyue bring it home.
walked to central with them and i got my mandrian orange fruit plate again!
in love with mandrain orange now.
and we sat by the river side to chit chat and take photographs.
departed after that cause i'm going back to work.
they even send me back to liang court though they are taking mrt.
so sweet of you guys.
simply love you all :)
backto work again.
worked for lunch, dinner and supper shift.
i'm dead beat ok.
then pierre was like saying ''Cybil you are the best tonight''
hahas.
crapped with the chefs in the kitchen and the pantry staff gave me dessert.
oh my god!
i gonna grow fat.
reached home around 3a.m.
bath and slacked a bit then sleep le..

my birthday wish this year is to get - the pink cello case.
well i know i can't fufill it...

and also HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO YINGYUE!
you guys are my best seniors :)

simply love you homer.
belated happy 3rd month!

here i am again...

2008-11-04T20:48:00.000-08:00

it has been so long since i post.
just start from yesterday.
yesterday went to look for homer.
cause he is on MC and i didn't go to work due to some discomfort.
was babysitting aden.
but homer was doing almost all the job.
coax him to sleep etc.
the baby is like a snake.
so active larhs.
make us both so tired.
luckily his mom come home in time.
our saviour!
hahas.
had my make up done and homer send me to bus stop at around 4p.m. to go to work and we departed after that.
the bus driver drove really slow.
took me around one and a half hour to reach clarke quay.
so dulan.
then somemore is raining when i alight.
was sort of drenched when i reached shin yeh.
everyone was having their dinner.
i quickly have my dinner too and changed to get ready for the briefing we had everyday.
went to the toilet first with yaohong and demi after our dinner as the manager is still not out for the briefing yet.
when we came out of the toilet, everyone is already there for the briefing,
we dashed in to join them.
then suddenly i slipped and fell and i kneel down in front of everyone.
was like so paiseh.
then all of them came to help me up.
hahas.
then kitty was like saying, though i never come in the morning shift, i also no need to kneel down in front of everyone to beg for forgiveness.
i was like so L.L.
fanny arrange me and kelly to stay at Room 6, 7 and 8 the VIP room.
then is like shortage of people.
then kelly arrange me to stay at Room 6.
got 11 people.
10 japanese and 1 taiwanese.
that table is like so difficult to serve.
very troublesome.
release from work at around 11.20p.m.
and dad came to fetch me home.

hope you like the 3rd month anniversary gift...
elmo love homer!
3 more days to our 3rd month.
wees!

getting on it.

2008-10-26T07:32:00.000-07:00

has been some time since i last post.
well, was busy working lately.
work for the sake of my chio chio pink cello case and the german bow.
hais.
working so hard.
came to know quite a few people there.
include yaohong, demi, nick they all.
like so buddy.
hahas.
my baobei homer is there too.
today was really a busy day for us.
setting, serving customers, clean up etc.
was dead beat when i reached home.
gastric act up again yesterday.
told damien about it.
then nick came to know about it too.
he got me a glass of warm water and waited for me at the bar counter there to pass to me.
thanks to the glass of warm water that i'm able to endure the pain.
well, thanks nick!
lols.
then chiong to kitchen to have my dinner straight after work.
have sweet potato porridge with other food.
goup a lot of muachi.
was pretty nice.
then went off to collect my pay.
hahas.
then went home after that.

loving my one and only homer!

fourth day at work today.

2008-10-22T07:32:00.000-07:00

this is my uniform at work.

today is my forth day at work.

not in the mood to post currently.

damien, what to do?

my second day at work..

2008-10-19T07:43:00.001-07:00

today is my second day at work!
working at a restaurant at clark quey with huishan.
my best bud.
hahas.
wake up at 8.50a.m. in the morning.
realised that i'm going to be late to my work place.
need to reach the restaurant by around 10.30a.m. or earlier.
iron my clothes, bath, then put on the make up then dash out to the bus stop to take bus 32.
luckily the bus just nice come when i reached the bus stop.
if not, i will be late for work.
reached clark quey at around 10.10a.m.
waited for huishan at the mac downstairs while getting my daily kick.
my milo!
hahas.
huishan reached shortly and we went up to the restaurant.
i dress until i look like a office girl.
look so wrong.
change into the uniform immediately when we reached there.
everyone was having their brunch.
we joined them after that.
today was in a team with eric, daren and kitty.
one supervisor with the three of us.
well, thought that the job will be easy.
but it end up to be super busy and tiring.
the restaurant is always full house.
and we have to clear the table, rearrange the utensils, serve customer, brew tea etc.
what a hell job!
and i even stayed up to 3a.m. last night to write notes and draw the floor plan to make sure everything go well today.
so tired.
yesterday my time slot was 6p.m. to 11p.m.
today is 11a.m. to 3.30p.m.
and tomorrow is from 6p.m. to 11p.m.
shouldn't post what happened during working time..
homer came to look for me today!
had our dinner at the central there.
hehes.
then after that went to his house to slack.
miss the baby boy so much!
so long never saw him le.
homer send me home after that at around 8p.m.
and now blogging!
sleeping soon.
still have to work and go school tomorrow.
good night!

love my one and only baby.
080808. a date not to be forgotten.

emo-ing now...

2008-10-18T23:54:00.000-07:00

just got a part time job at tung lok restaurant.
going to work later.
work just for the sake of my cello..
well i don't know why am i feeling so emo.
at his house posting now..
just now was watching the nanyang poly beautiful sunday concert performance on the tv.
he on it.
saw belle on the first programme.
hais...
then subsequently, saw his ex..from the percussion group.
a fine looking lady..
just don't know how to describe it.
then saw the third girl.
playing the drum set.
he once told me that he had chemistry with that girl.
hais..
well i know if you see this, you'll probably regret telling me all this things.
but i seriously appreciate it when you're frank with me.
you asked me why do i get emo so easily or rather so often.
perhaps i just have a sense of insecure..
maybe you prefer me not to rely on you so much but instead i'm doing the other way round.
i remembered everything you've said.
no matter is positive or negative.
well, that's me.
sorry.
i just want someone for me to rely on and someone to hold on when i fall.
you may not be able to do it or what for you need your own time for your own stuff.
but i know you've done your best.
sorry.
and thanks for your reassurance at times.
i appreciate it.

all about me.

2008-10-13T19:14:00.000-07:00

This is what i got after doing a quiz and this quiz speaks pretty accurately about me...

Your view on yourself:Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
(i just can't help hiding my true self. Worrying people will harm me in all their ways, i choose to put on a mask to live on..unless you've make me feel that you can be rely on.)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.
(i don't see a point to continue with a relationship which doesn't last. It is just wasting of my time and effort. 'im looking for life partner who i can open myself to him)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
(well, let's not waste time. If i think you're the right guy for me, i will commit to the relationship wholeheartedly. If i think you're not the guy for me, i won't waste time with you. I will simply leave you or i won't even start the relatioship with you)

Your views on education: Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
(To me, education is important but that doesn't mean everything. Earning money is important cause anyone may betray us. We can't depend on anyone but ourselves. While living on my own is what i'm looking forward to. Avoid arguements and quarrels.)

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
(A secure job comes with a steady income naturally. It maybe important to look for jobs like that but i go for jobs that interests me and i'm looking for jobs in the music or health care sector.)

How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
(I'm confident in my future perhaps.)

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
(This is absolutely true! I'm afraid of lonely-ness which can kill me. I would like someone to rely and depend on. Imdependence is definitely important to me.)

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
(I think i'm not so good as written. I'm suffering from low-self esteem.)

a day at sentosa...

2008-10-11T18:23:00.000-07:00

today wake up early at around 7.30a.m.
meeting homer at 8.30a.m. to go sentosa.
hahas.
so excited about it.
going to get tanner!
reached habourfront at around 9.10a.m. had our breakfast at the hawker.
after which, we went around to look for POSB atm.
took the bus from habourfront bus interchange to sentosa after that.
took the tram to the tanjong beach.
wanted to go siloso actually.
but there's sure a lot of people there.
get changed and get into the sea.
hahas.
the sun is really huge.
played in the water with homer.
the water is warm.
thought that it will be cold.
stayed there until 1 plus.
then took the tram to the station to change into bus to go to the fort siloso.
walked around there
then went to the dragon trail...
took some photos there.
shall post the photos later.
overall, had fun there and most importantly, i got tanner!
which is actually the main issue.
hehes.
after that took the bus back to habourfront at 3 plus.
went to vivocity.
homer suggest to watched movie.
the eagle eye.
bought the tickets at 6p.m.
then had our dinner at food republic.
and went to the threatre to watch the movie.
the threatre is freezing cold!
i'm shivering inside.
hahas.
don't really understand the movie though.
but still enjoyed and cherish the time spend with homer.

love my one and only Homer.

love you Damien!

2008-10-07T20:15:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 2ND ANNIVERSARY!
TO MY BELOVED HOMER! <3 DAMIEN KEE!

LOVING YOU MORE AND MORE..

GET WELL SOON!

DON'T FORGET THAT WE'RE GOING SENTOSA ON SATURDAY!

LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT DAY.

LOVE YOU.
HUGS AND KISSES.

homer going for the colonscopy...

2008-10-07T19:41:00.000-07:00

well..today wake up rather early.
around 7a.m.
cause going to accompany homer to the hospital for the scope.
reached his house at around 8.10a.m.
after that went off together to the hospital at around 8.45a.m
took the bus to the hospital and reached there around 9.10a.m.
after which homer was asked to go to the ward and change into the ''sarong''
hahas.
took his unglam picture with his ''sarong'' on.
was rather worried for him for the scope cause it is definately going to cause great discomfort.
the nurse came to push him into the operating threatre after he got ready at around 9.35a.m.
and the nurse told me to come back after an hour.
i went downstairs to get him some drinks and most importantly, i got him a straw.
was still worrying about him.
pacing here and there hoping that he will be alright. (sounds like some major operation)
hahas.
went up at 10.30a.m.
was surprised that he had came out from the OT.
homer was feeling very uncomfortable and pain.
was sad to see him in this state.
sorry that i can't share his pain.
bought him a bottle of water.
the nurse gave him a cup of milo and some sandwiches as homer was still feeling weak.
he drank the milo but he didn't eat the snadwiches and the nurse took it away.
luckily got prepared straw for him.
if not he will have problem drinking the milo and the water.
phew~
accompany homer until around 3p.m. before he can be discharged.
did some revision while accompanying him and played his DS also.
hahas.
going to abandoned my PSP for the DS already.
lols.
went to collect medicine for him after discharging.
homer told me he feel like puking.
and i got him fishball noodles soup and hot milo.
hoping that he will feel better after eating some hot soupy stuff.
never did i expect him to puke everything out after eating a mouthful.
make me so worried.
told myself to finish the rice as fast as possible so that can bring homer home in the earliest possible time.
took homer home after that in bus 9.
was glad to hear that he felt better after puking.
stayed at his house till around 6.15p.m.
his mom made some marvallous dumpling and i dipped it in the vinegar and the pepper and that was my dinner.
hahas.
was happy to see that homer is eating.
after which, homer send me to the bus stop as he wasn't feeling well to send me home.
reached home at 7 plus.
and my stomach is like fighting a war.
twisting here and there.
OMG!
lols.

GET WELL SOON HOMER!

LOVE YOU ALWAYS!

i am tanner!

2008-10-03T03:14:00.000-07:00

today is friday, 3 october 2008'
wake up at 6.30a.m.
bath and everything to get ready to go school.
reached school at around 7.05a.m.
having maths paper 2 and geography paper today.
wasn't tense at all.
perhaps i felt that i'm quite prepared for it.
maths paper started at 8a.m. and ended at 10a.m.
the paper wasn't as difficult as i think it was.
homer called me on my way home.
talked till i reached home..
went for a swim straight after i reached home.
the sun is really huge today.
bright and sunny.
hahas.
i am the only one in the pool.
had an hour of sun tanning under the huge sun.
took some photos too..but i am only posting one.
now going to rush out for geography paper.
wish me good luck!

there goes my surprise for you homer...

2008-10-01T07:00:00.000-07:00

today is hari raya.
thus is also a public holiday.
well, just let me start from yesterday..

yesterday which is tuesday, 30 september 2008'
wake up early.
suppose to go for jogging early in the morning at 6a.m.
but end up feeling sick and didn't go.
sleep till 8a.m. then went down to mummy hair salon.
had a new hair cut.
double layer straight cut top.
hahas.
one side long one side short.
it suppose to be fashion but i thought mummy forget to cut the longer side.
make myself a joke...
had brunch with daddy at anchorpoint there and went home to bath.
after that meet homer at aljunied mrt station.
i was late for an hour!
sorry homer, make you wait for so long.
luckily you still have your xiao laopo DS with you.
bought him sesame paste.
and then we walked to the bubble tea shop near the library to have our break.
took bus to dhoby ghaut after that.
went to music essential to look for some scores.
manage to find the scores by J.S.BACH.
omg! i have been looking for it for quite a long time.
from suite 1 to suite 6.
hahas.
bought a mini tuner by chance too.
and the total bill is $104.90.
which is quite expensive.
the scores alone cost $75.00 w/ gst and the tuner cost $29.90 w/gst.
well, is ok since i don't spend so much that often on my scores.
went to plaza singapura with homer after that.
he was thinking if he wants to get the mp3 in the first place.
but in the end, he still bought it.
there goes my surprise for you homer!
was like giving him the L.L. face.
hahas.
then took bus 14 to tanah merah to change to bus 9 to his house for dinner.
was not feeling well on the way there.
his mom cooked curry chicken and a soup.
it taste nice.
homer send me home after that.
we took bus 2 home.
but we alighted at the joo chiat complex there.
cause there're too much people.
departed after that.

today, 1 october 2008'
is children's day today but at the same time it is also hari raya.
it have been such a long time since i celebrate children's day.
well, i should know i have grown up...-,-
homer came to look for me early in the morning.
he is behaving weirdly.
hahas
had breakfast at haig road there.
the breakfast wasn't ideal.
after that, went home to slack.
went out for lunch together at 1p.m.
had our lunch at beach road.
homer send me home after that.
took bus 197 home from there.
and we departed shortly.
took bus 197 to mummy salon at around 3.30p.m.
then reached there at around 4.30p.m.
was sort of tired.
help her out throughout the day.
and had our dinner spend together with daddy.
went home after that..

i am dead beat today thanks to homer!
my first time to you...
love you damien kee!~

so long since i last post...

2008-09-29T02:09:00.000-07:00

well, it has been more than a week since i last post.
was kinda busy.
hahas.
let me just start from saturday...

saturaday, 27 september 2008.
wake up late in the morning.
thought that i'm going to be late for tuition.
took train to simei then change to bus 39 to go tampines.
reached the tuition centre on the dot.
lessons were as usual.
it is the last lesson already.
homer last minute changed plan.
he came to look for me after my tuition to have our lunch together.
wees!
homer passed his lesson 5 for his motor bike already.
can proceed to lesson 6 now..
elmo always behind you!
hahas.
after that, we took bus 9 together and he alighted before me to go home straight away.
i took the bus to bedok and changed to bus 2 to go home.
was kinda tired.
did some household chores and some revision.
after that, bathe and got changed.
meeting up with homer at 5p.m to go toa payoh to take the scores from zhanghe.
but in the end, we were late.
we meet at paya lebar at 5.20p.m and we took the train together.
i alighted at orchard first to buy tickets for the movie ''painted skin'' but in the end, the ticket for the 7.10p.m time slot was sold out totally.
called homer and asked him to go plaza singapura directly to get the tickets at 6.55p.m. instead.
i took the train back to dhoby ghaut.
bought a cup of yam bubble tea on my way back to plaza singapura.
quell my desire for yam for the moment.
hahas.
meet up with homer at plaza singapura.
it was about 6.30p.m. at that time.
went to carrefour to buy some snacks to the threatre.
but in the end we only bought a bar of chocolate and two bottles of drinks.
couldn't find any tempting snacks.
knowing that my homer is hungry, i pulled him to basement 2 to buy some food up.
we got fried sweet potato fritters!
well, it taste pretty nice.
after that, we went up to the threatre to catch our movie.
we were 5 mins late.
and we finish the fritters within 15mins in the threatre.
hahas.
the show was rather disappointing.
though is sort of touching but it suppose to be horror movie.
in the end, there was a lot of laughing scene.
had our dinner at the food court after the movie.
homer ordered beef noodles for us.
and he was telling me that the soup taste sweet but i don't feel anything.
instead i feel that the soup is utterly bland.
well i know that my tastebuds had spoil.
most of the shops were closed but we still did some window shopping.
we talked about a lot of stuffs and homer found out what i did for him when it suppose to be a surprise.
hahas.
hmm...i know he was rather interested in the creative mp3 but due to financial restrain...
he don't know if he should get it.
attacked homer on the way out of plaza singapura.
after that, we took bus 16 home cause the waiting time for bus 7 is longer and it is getting late.

sunday, 28 september 2008.
wake up in the morning at 6a.m. to go jogging.
but in the end wake up at 6.20a.m.
everyone in the family is still asleep.
i was the first to wake up.
need to jog more to cut down on weight.
had been doing more exercises lately like swimming, running etc.
hahas.
jog for a longer distance this time round.
bought breakfast home for everyone.
daddy had wake up when i reached home.
and he is preparing mixed vegetable and fruit juice for everyone.
daddy and mummy went out to work at around 8.15a.m.
left sister and her boyfriend and me at home.
went out at 9a.m.to deliver the scores to homer at the nearby bus stop as he need it for his practice.
bring him porridge and coffee also.
cause he get hungry very easily.
went home after seeing his bus comes.
sister and her boyfriend went out at 11a.m. to have their brunch before going to work.
left me alone at home.
homer came to look for me after his practice at jingshan.
he accompany me for the whole day.
we went out to tanjong katong mall to have our dinner at around 5 plus.
had chicken rice.
after that we had our dessert at the dessert shop.
homer ate walnut paste and i ate red bean paste.
after that we walked to gramency hoping to get some music scores.
but sadly, it had closed.
walked to tanjong katong complex to the music shop but it had closed too.
hahas.
and lastly we went to singpost popular to get some necessary stationary as i need it for my maths paper the next day.
homer was getting tired when i took a long time to choose all the pens etc.
sorry homer and thanks for the patience.
took bus 70m home after that.

today, monday, 29 september 2008'
wake up at 6a.m. in the morning.
was having a terrrible headache and the worst thing is that i am having N''level combined science and maths paper 1 today.
daddy send sister to work then send me to school.
i was running a fever.
but no choice.
i still need to sit for the paper no matter what.
had difficulties focusing during physics paper 1 & 2.
fell asleep on the table while doing the paper halfway without realising it.
but thanks to eurica.
she wake me up with the dragging sound of her chair.
then have 10mins break before chemistry paper 3 & 4.
should say that physics paper is tougher compared to chemistry.
went home after science paper to rest before going back schoo at 2p.m. for maths paper 1.
watch tv and had my brunch at home then had a cold bath as directed by homer before going to school for the maths paper 1.
after that daddy came home to fetch me to school knowing that i wasn't feeling well.
thanks daddy!
then after the maths paper, daddy was already outside school waiting for me to fetch me back home.
cause was raining heavily and daddy don't want me to get wet as i wasn't feeling well.
thanks once again to my thoughtful daddy!
hahas.
reached home shortly and saw mummy preparing a lot of food for dinner.
steamed fish, prawns, sweet potato soup and more!
a tempting dinner indeed.

i love my one and only homer.
you're irreplacable.

sian sian sian...

2008-09-21T01:35:00.000-07:00

today is sunday.
21 september 2008'
8 more days to my N'level.
having night study next week.
don't know if i'm going.
well..today wake up rather early.
7.30a.m.
then study all the way to afternoon then went to cheng san to look for homer.
then after that go to his house to use computer then go home le..
going to stop here.
not in the mood to post.

keep craving for heineken.
well, it do make me feel better after drinking it.
sian...i'm getting emo.

love my homer more and more.
and the more i'm scared of losing you.
do you love me as much too?

back to posting!

2008-09-20T01:11:00.000-07:00

well, i have not been posting for one week.
was busy throughout the week and i guess the next coming week will be just as busy or even busier.
hmm...
let me just start from today
today is saturday.
20 september 2008'
had tuition in the morning.
wake up pretty early in the morning.
around 7.30a.m
dad dropped me at paya lebar as usual then took the train to simei and changed to bus no. 39.
lessons was as usual.
homer came to fetch me from tuition and we had our lunch there..
hahas.
homer got a elmo phone holder for me.
thanks homer! loves.
took bus to the temple to pray for ruixiang after that.
then went to suntec for the game exhibition.
actually we're going to alexandra to repair homer's watch but no one answer the call.
and we end up going to suntec straight away.
hahas.
after that went to homer's house to slack for awhile then took train to paya lebar.
bought subway for dinner.
and homer accompany me home.
was playing the cello from 10p.m. to 1a.m.
figuring some songs
and i figured out ''tonight i celebrate my love for you''.
was pretty nice.
then went to sleep after ensuring that sister blows her hair before she sleeps and all the electrical appliances was turn off.
was round 2a.m. at that time.
zZz...
missing my homer...

a day with homer at the changi airport...

2008-09-13T09:38:00.000-07:00

i pretty tired right now.
but i'm still blogging for homer's sake.
just read his post..
well, today is saturday.
13 september 2008.
16 more days to my N'level.
was busy studying lately..
wake up early in the morning today.
daddy dropped me at paya lebar.
took train to simei and took a cab from there to tampines.
cause was sort of late.
reached the tuition centre at 9.25a.m.
thought that i would be able to make it on time.
then heard from the receptionist that the teacher is sick and he can't make it.
and end up lesson cancelled.
WTF!
paid for my tuition fee first before going off.
homer was having his E-trial at that time.
took bus 9 to his house there and waited at the void deck for his return.
was raining heavily.
luckily had my umbrella with me.
but was worried that homer would get wet on his way back home.
did some revision for my F&N at the void deck while waiting for him.
went to his house to slack after that.
then went out to changi airport to walk around at 2 plus.
homer wore in formal outfit.
which really look nice on him.
took bus 24.
can tell that homer is very tired but he still accompany me.
hahas.
xie xie ni homer baobei.
walk around all the terminal and joke around.
took some photos there too.
shall post the photos tomorrow.
after that took bus 24 to tanah merah and change to bus 12 to go katong.
had katong laksa for dinner.
wees!
walked to katong mall to buy some groceries after that.
and homer become my personal maid.
hahas.
shall post his unglam photos tomorrow!
lols.
after that, we took bus 32 and homer send me home.
departed from there.

gonna prepare breakfast for homer tomorrow.
wees!

love damien forevers.
tired tired, love love.

homer was 'molested'!

2008-09-12T08:31:00.000-07:00

well, was pretty happy that lessons ends at 12.25p.m. today.
lessons was as usual.
had chemistry for the first two period followed by geography then english then geography again.
after which, was recess time.
many people took early depart to go to derek's wake as today is the last day.
planned to go after school actually but the time was too pact.
didn't go in the end.
homer came to school to fetch me today.
went to hawker for lunch after that.
saw classmates and juniors that.
but most importantly, we saw chen lao shi there with yongshun.
i suppose there will be lots of gossips when i go back to school for practice.
well...after that, took bus 2 to simei mrt there.
then hope on to homer's bike and off we go to Changi General Hospital.
cause he's having appointment there for his... ...
shall keep mum about it.
hahas.
went to his house to slack after that.
in the end fall asleep on his bed.
fallen in love with all his mistress already.
i want all your mistresses!!!
lols.
then his mom takeaway dinner for me but i wasn't hungry.
took it home to eat instead.
homer send me home in the evening.
and lastly, we departed there...

love homer baobei forevers~
oops! seems like we had forgotten to celebrate our 1st month anniversary.

moonfest performance at esplanade.

2008-09-11T08:06:00.000-07:00

received a news today which was kinda shocking.
gary came to me early in the morning and tell me that derek had passed away.
was like so sudden.
well, this is life.
everyone has to die.
is just a matter of time.
but for derek, i may be better for him cause we all know he is suffering through all those surgery and chemotherapy.
went to the wake with weibin, gary, hana, xingtian and marco after school.
his wake was quite near to our school.
burn a joss stick for him and went in to see him for the last time.
it was really a heartbreaking moment for us.
shouldn't go into details about it.
then took a cab home from there cause i'm running late.
bath and get changed immediately upon reaching home.
then dad fetch me to the esplanade.
homer was already there setting up.
the performance was at the concourse.
waited for quite a long time.
but is alright.
they're having soundcheck before the performance.
it was about 6 plus going 7 at that time.
homer had to get in and get prepared.
then for me, i dashed though the crowds to go to raffles city to get my granola bars at the marketplace.
saw some sushi along the way and bought some to share with homer during his break.
after that, dashed back to esplanade again to watch homer performing.
was kinda late by 10mins.
and the performances had started when i reached there.
but i already tried my best to dash back from raffles city.
sorry homer.
ate the sushi with homer during the first 30mins break.
then he went back to perform and i stand at the side to watch him playing.
he trained real hard for this performance i know.
and it came out well.
hahas.
then sat down at the seats behind and chatted with him during his second break.
after which he went back to perform and i got myself a seat at the side and watch him.
to me, he played real good.
is not because of his skills but the effort he put in.
hahas.
then after the last performances, he went in and i went downstairs to wait for his call.
he asked me to wait for him at the loading bay.
and he send me home instead of following them back to NYP.
we walked to bugis from esplanade to take bus 2 home.
reached home at 11 plus.
was so tired.
but i guess homer was even more tired cause he was still having his hangover.
after which, we departed and we went home.

homer, you're the best to elmo.
loves and hugs homer.

changi chalet here i come!

2008-09-10T07:01:00.000-07:00

well...
today is wednesday.
10 september 2008'
19 more days to my N'level.
school was as usual today.
teachers was slacking.
never teach us.
hahas.
went home straight after school.
need to prepare to go to my baobei chalet.
so happy.
went out of the house at 3p.m.
dad fetched sister off from work and dropped her at tanjong pagar for OT.
then after which he U-TURN and dropped me at paya lebar.
took the train to tampines.
baobei homer was still at the chalet.
reached tampines at around 4.30p.m.
walked around in tampines mall while waiting for homer's sms.
but end up hunting for food cause my gastric is acting up again.
bought some sandwiches from four leaves.
intend to share with my baobei homer.
received sms from homer shortly and took the shuttle bus to tampines MEGA stores there to wait for him.
reached there first.
walked around in the giant supermarket.
but realised that i was stuck at the liqueur section.
saw vodka, johnnie walker etc.
was like missing the taste.
OMG!
I'M TEMPTED!
hahas.
saw homer there while walking around.
he didn't realised that i walked passed him.
he was with a group of his poly friends buying those bbq stuff.
meet up with him only when he was done.
then one of his friends drove us to the chalet.
the location was rather ULU.
i think i won't be able to find my way there if i go alone but instead getting lost.
hahas.
reached at chalet at around 6 plus.
didn't help much in the setting up process cause my knee was like really pain.
sorry guys.
saw a pathway linking to the far end.
walked there with homer baobei.
then stayed there for awhile before walking back.
only then that we realised that we left out the metal thingy for the bbq.
homer left it at the counter there.
hahas.
one of his friends drove us out to the cheers again to buy it and majong paper also.
started with the bbq after that.
walked around in the chalet as i don't really know the guys there and i got nothing to do.
homer keep feeding elmo with the food.
lols.
self-service heineken from the fridge.
finish it within 5mins.
it was like soft drink to me.
couldn't taste the alcohol.
guess homer is right, there's something wrong with my tastebud.
after which i started helping them with the bbq.
and i was like standing there bbq-ing for 2hours without noticing.
homer made screwdriver for me.
which is vodka mixed with orange juice.
was pretty nice.
didn't drink much cause was busy bbq-ing.
well, had fun there.
some of the guys came up to me and asked me to take a break cause i was bbq-ing for the past 2hours.
finish all the satays, stingrays, squids and some of the chicken wings and fillets.
then one of the guys send me and homer to the bus stop outside which was quite a distance away from the chalet.
homer waited bus 2 with me at the bus stop before going back to the chalet.
reached home at around 11p.m.
was sort of tired but still enjoyed myself..

homer, i want screwdriver!

Damien, listen to me...

2008-09-09T00:37:00.000-07:00

well, shall not post about what happened today.
basically just studying the whole day..

want to tell my baobei pls don't leave me.
for i love you like no one else before.
pls don't abandon me.
for i can't find someone as good as you.
pls help me through this ordeal.
for we will last long after it.
pls lend me you ears
for i need a listening ear.
pls lend me your shoulder.
for i need someone to rely on.

i know you're rather tired and frustrated over those happening that happened recently.
but i really do hope that you will pull through it with me.
i'm really scared to go through it alone.
is you who give me a reason to live on.
is you who bring me hope and laughter.
and is you who i wanna be with.

[i love you damien]
[080808]

i cherish the time with you...

2008-09-08T05:42:00.000-07:00

quite sometime never post already.
don't really have the time to post lately.
was sort of busy..
just let me start from saturday..
waited for homer at eunos there in the morning.
had breakfast with him.
roti prata!
hahas.
then went to his house.
sleep!
polluted the bed.
was so guilty that i didn't help him much while he was doing the bed etc.
sorry homer!
shall not say too much about what happened in the afternoon.
was all unpleasant stuff.
went to changi beach with homer.
spend our time there till 5 plus.
then walked to the hawker and get our drinks.
took bus no. 2 to haig road there.
so many people there at the hawker.
due to hari raya.
then end up having dinner at a small coffee shop behind lion city hotel.
had bak gu tek.
fattening dinner!
hahas.
but is ok to have it once in a while.
then homer walked me home.
stayed at house downstairs and talked with homer before going home...
that all about saturday..

then sunday which is also yesteday,
went up early in the morning.
around 9a.m.or even earlier i think.
rolled about on the bed.
bathe and went out.
took very long time to decide what to wear.
then i the end choose the blue mango tube.
hahas.
went to cheng san to look for homer.
he was still practicing when i reached.
fall asleep while listening to them playing.
too tired.
cause only sleep for a few hours last night.
after the practice, we went to the library to return book.
then walked around at AMK.
after which we went took bus no. 25 to hougang.
took my homer to have western food.
i had mixed grill and he had lamb chop all on the hotplate.
waited for quite long.
then after dinner, walked to the bus interchange to take bus no.51 home.
only then we realised that we walked a long distance to the coffee shop when there is a shortcut.
hahas.
homer send me home and i could see that he was rather tired.
then homer sense that i am something wrong then asked me about it.
well, thanks homer for being thoughtful.
elmo appreciate it.
reached home at around 8.30p.m.
no one is at home.
called homer on the phone to talk.
hanged up when he was about to reach home.
then bath and revised some work while waiting for the the clock to hit 12mn so as to say happy first month to my beloved homer!
but eyes was getting red and pain.
couldn't hold it till 12mn.
sorry homer.
that was about sunday..

today which is monday.
want to tell homer this.
HAPPY FIRST MONTH ANNIVERSARY!
LOVE YOU FOREVERS DAMIEN! HUGGIES~
day to go back to the school too.
was sort of tired.
had a change in the timetable.
school ended at 1p.m. everyday.
yeah! so happy.
but can't slack.
still got three more paper to go for N'level.
need to work hard..
chatted on the phone with homer from recess time to two period after recess.
cause there was no teacher when it was suppose to be chinese period.
then after that hanged down the phone cause homer is going for his lunch.
had geography lesson after the two free period.
mrs wong couldn't teach at all cause our class was too noisy.
then end up not having lesson.
bell goes off at 1p.m.
was feeling unwell.
chest pain and shortness of breathe.
sms homer to tell him about it.
went for lunch first as gastric is following up.
reached home at around 2p.m.
went for a swim.
swim for 5 laps and felt tired.
too long never swim already.
everytime is gym or outdoor running.
hahas.
must swim more often.
then homer went swimming after i got out of the pool.
he swim for 8 laps.
lols.
went home to bath and did some revision.
talked to homer on the phone after that.
and now posting.
gonna stop here.
going to play my cello now.
LOVE MY CELLO LOADS!

Damien, happy first month anniversary.
i'm very happy with you for the past one month.
and i hope that there will be lots of anniversaries for us in the future.
love you forevers 纪丰玮！

motor test today..

2008-09-03T19:27:00.000-07:00

today is wednesday.
3 september 2008'
was having listening compre and social studies paper.
homer was on MC.
he came to school to accompany me home after the listening compre paper as the SS paper starts in the afternoon.
went to have our breakfast at the hawker centre.
we shared carrot cake.
then after that took bus home.
homer accompany me home before going to tampines at the polyclinic.
went home and get changed and went out to jog again.
meet daddy and his zhar bor at the old airport hawker.
the zhar bor was rather stunned to see me.
well...
should say that i got used to it.
after that went home and surf the net and went back to school for the SS paper again at 1.45p.m.
the paper ended at 3.30p.m..
went home and get changed and meet homer at paya lebar.
walked around there as there's malay festival thingy there.
then took the bus to eunos and had our dinner there.
after which we took bus no.51 to the comfortdelgro as homer is having his motor test.
hahas.
waited for him at the cafe there for his test to end.
it started raining when he was having his test.
my poor homer is all wet.
took bus to haig road there for a walk before going home.
experiences a new way to eat the vadai.
thanks to homer.
a mouthful of vadai plus a bite of the green chili.
went home at around 10.30p.m.
bath and sleep le.
that's all.

miss my homer..
don't be sad that you failed.
elmo will always be here for you!

starting of my N' level exams..

2008-09-02T02:38:00.000-07:00

well, today is having the first paper for N'level.
wake up pretty early in the morning.
around 6.15a.m. to bath and get changed.
daddy fetch sister to work first then fetch me to school.
but he end up dropping me at hawker.
saw yam paste ''waving'' to me early in the morning.
got tempted.
bought a cup of the yam paste and bought one yam cake.
both the yam cake and the yam paste was nice.
but for the yam cake, i only eat the chucks of yam inside the yam cake instead of the whole yam cake.
haha.
saw adrienne and lena there too.
walked to school with them.
had chinese paper 1 & 2 today.
paper 1 started from 8a.m. and ended at 10a.m.
and paper 2 started from 10.30a.m. and ended at 12p.m.
the paper wasn't tough.
it was just tougher than what i expected.
but overall, it wasn't too difficult.
spend one and a half hour on paper 1 and 30mins on paper 2.
kinda short time.
spend the rest of the time sleeping and drooling.
lols.
went to singpost with karan, huishan and lena after school for lunch.
actually only intend to get the yogrut there.
but end up having macdonalds' with them.
thanks to them that i'm gaining somemore weight.
but choose the student meal.
the fillet-o-fish set meal.
which was like the smallest in portion and i ordered the regular size while the other three girls got MACspicy set meals and somemore upsize meal.
they're going to gain weight soon.
haha.
crap with them there and talked with homer on the phone.
huishan keep saying that i ''重色侵友''.
and insist that i hanged down the phone and join in with their gossiping session.
but i didn't do that .
cause i want my homer.
lols.
went to the popular bookstore with them cause karan wants to get some stationary.
after which i accompany them to the NTUC to get their candy.
then they went to watson to look for cosmetics.
departed from there afterwards.
took bus no. 70 home.
reached home at around 2.15p.m.
slacked for a while then got changed to go for a run.
started running from 3p.m.
run from my house here to the park then crossed opposite to the connector then to the old airport road the hawker there.
bought some fried bananas fritters for daddy cause he like it.
but it end up making me to wait for 10mins for the bananas fritters cause they're still frying the bananas.
then from there run home again.
was like 6 months never run for long distances already.
stopped for a few times in between my run.
too long never run already.
heart don't feel good.
haha.
reached home at 3.30p.m. sharp.
minus away the 10mins i spent in the hawker waiting for the bananas fritters, left 20mins.
which means i spend 20mins running.
should i say i am fast for the distance i run?
or should i say i am slow?
haha.
i'm just running to keep myself healthy and to maintain my figure i suppose.
intend to go for a swim after the run but it started raining.
then i went home to bath.
and now posting..

omg! i'm having yam everyday and it is 4x as starchy as potato.
i'm going to be fat!

一日不见，如隔三秋。

我好想你我的宝贝。

希望能快点看到你。

我爱你，我的宝贝纪丰玮！

the day without you is dull...

2008-09-01T08:07:00.000-07:00

today wasn't a good day for me.
was grounded...
wake up at around 10a.m.
sms homer.
then keep falling asleep while waiting for his reply.
talked on the phone with him when he reached camp till 11 plus.
and i hanged up the call when mom start scolding me.
sian.
early in the morning keep nagging over the same thing over and over again.
get out of my bed at around 12p.m.
clean my room and pack my cupboard.
went out with dad and mom to have our lunch at around 2p.m.
dad bring me to eat big prawn noodles.
wees!
then mom keep complaining and don't want to go and end up making dad angry.
haha.
that was then mom stopped her nonsense
had our lunch and then went to bedok.
cause dad and mom want to get somethings there.
then we went marine parade.
dad suggested it.
cause sister is going there with her in-charge.
mom went shopping and i asked dad out to have a drink.
dad brought me to starbucks.
had my floral lemonade drink.
was pretty nice.
and mom was still shopping when dad and i spend hours sitting at starbucks.
then no choice had to accompany mom to shop around.
mom bought a lot of new clothers.
haha.
then i pull dad to borders again.
cause i wasn't in the mood to shop around.
kinda exhausted.
kianfai sms me and asked me some things.
shall keep mum about it.
spotted sister at dome cafe at around 7p.m.
then after that takeaway my dinner and went home.
continued with my cleaning up at home.
went to bath after that and now posting.

next monday is my first month with homer.
sadly, he's having clerk duty and he's having practice at night.
which means we can't have time together.
sad sad.

well homer, i hope that my instinct is right.
i trust you and have confident in you.
and i know you won't disappoint me.
giving in to you wasn't a reward to you for being who you're now.
it was a great degree of faith, trust and love i have in you.

i am pretty happy that i manage to figure out what you're thinking.
or at least i know what to do.
i will learn to take the lead at times.
i'm starting to reveal myself.
i felt that i know you better through the time we spend together.
and of course the conversation we engaged in made me know you better as well.
i am pretty sure you're the one i'm looking for.
you're the ideal boy for me.
i won't let you go no matter what happen.
i will love you wholeheartly and no one else.
you're my one and only.

listen to me damien, i want to tell you that i love you and you're irreplacable.

starry starry night...

2008-08-31T07:30:00.000-07:00

today is sunday.
which is the last day of august too.
wake up rather early today.
around 7.30a.m. when i slept at 2.30a.m. yesterday night.
i was like only have 5hrs of sleep.
haha.
daddy dropped me at paya lebar around 8.30a.m.
cause i was meeting up with my homer.
meet homer in the trian and board the traiin to ang mo kio at around 9a.m.
was pretty early when we reach ang mo kio.
around 9.40a.m.
homer prepared some bread for our breakfast.
and we had our breakfast at cheng san cc.
we were one of the earliest to reach there.
then people came in slowly.
homer had their practice while i was waiting for him in the auditorium.
they were having practice for the competition in the morning.
zhanghe was in too.
sadly i wasn't.
but is ok.
there is still chances ahead.
longhuai came shortly and i pull him to sit with me.
was kinda tired while waiting for homer and studying social studies.
fall asleep in the auditorium with my mp3 player on.
then longhuai wake me up when the practice came to a stop.
had our buffet lunch in the afternoon around 12.30p.m.
homer went back for practice after the lunch and i went back to the auditorium to wait for him and to study my social studies.
they're preparing to practice for the moonfest.
the songs sounds kinda tough.
and i heard some familiar pieces.
haha.
felt dizzy while waiting and i went out to take a walk.
went to ang mo kio hub to walk around.
recieved homer's sms to ask me where i go.
cause i didn't tell him that i went out and he was sort of worry.
sorry wors homer.
didn't tell you.
went back to chang san cc around 3p.m.
they're still practicing.
sat down and listen to them playing.
was pretty well except that my cello was out of tune.
haha.
then after that, homer accompany me home to put down my cello before going out again.
took bus no. 10 to katong for dinner after returning home.
homer introduce me to the chicken rice there.
it was pretty nice.
then we had our dessert after dinner.
had yam paste!
yummy!
homer knew i like it.
walked around in the mall then i suggested going to east coast park.
homer agreed to it.
went to get our fruit juice before going there.
it was around 8 plus when we reach ECP.
managed to get a sit there.
enjoyed spending the time with him.
we talked about a lot of things.
then homer send me home at around 10p.m.
and we departed there.

love homer always.

the day with homer...

2008-08-30T08:07:00.000-07:00

well today wake up early in the morning.

dad woke me up.

around 7 plus.

then bath and got changed.

dad dropped me at paya lebar mrt station.

took the mrt to simei.

homer ride his bike to look for me at the mrt station.

then step behind his bike to get around.

haha.

didn't want to stand behind the bike at first.

but guess i should give a try.

well i should say it was quite fun.

takeaway our breakfast nearby then went to his house to eat it.

watched cartoon while eating the porridge.

then after that spy on him sewing his beloved pillow mistress.

lol.

had our time there.

shouldn't go too detail on that.

homer gave me one shot of martel and one shot of whiskey.

he was sort of shocked that i drank it at one go.

cause i want the excitement.

haha.

took the trian to tampines after that.

had our lunch there.

intend to have bak chor mee for lunch but in the end, the stall wasn't open and so we end up eating char siew noodles.
took the shuttle bus to tampines IKEA after lunch.

homer was looking for double-deck bed and a computer chair.

went to the mega courts and giant supermarket after that.

was sort of disappointed that courts is only using one floor to sell electric appliances and the other two floor on furniture.

was like so weird.

fighting with IKEA huh?

lol.

the giant supermarket is better.

at least not selling furniture.

haha.

suggested to go suntec to see the IT fair cause i think homer will be interested in it.

took train to cityhall to go.

was sort of crowded.

squeeze here and there and finally we're out.

can't breathe inside the hall.

too cramp.

had our dinner at food republic after that.

guess what we eat?

we had the hokkien mee again.

which was pretty nice.

walked to take bus home after that.

took some ''gay'' pose of homer on the way.

a far view of homer carrying my handbag, posing as a ''gay''.

a close view of homer carrying my handbag, posing as a ''gay''.

after that, walked to the bus stop to take bus no 70 home.

and homer accompany me at home as there was no one at home.

haha.

that was about it today~

well homer, i didn't blame you for what happened today. so don't be guilty too.love you always~

back to primary school..

2008-08-29T07:25:00.000-07:00

was late to school today and had my name written down.
there was no lesson in school.
was celebrating teachers' day.
had that stupid mass walk.
which was to walk outside the fences around the whole school.
the girls in my class were like complaining like hell.
what shoes dirty etc.
haha.
sound so funny.
went to the school hall after the walk.
then mr keith played the olympic.
everyone was like not looking at it but doing their own stuff.
school form their own mjr idols.
had solos and in group.
but none of it was nice.
school ended at 10a.m. which was suppose to end at 10.30a.m.
30mins earlier.
went straight home after that.
bath and got changed.
checked the bus guide and took bus no 70 to paya lebar there and change to bus no 135 to my primary school.
was meeting huixian and his boyfriend, bernard there.
know both of them.
but end up saw adrienne there first then saw minghuang.
can't recognise minghuang.
though he still look so chubby and cute.
haha.
saw my ex-crush there.
kianfai!
still remember having a crush on him in primary school.
same class as me from pri 1 to pri 4.
and ever since he change class in pri 5, we have not been talking.
but it was weird that the moment i saw him today, we got so much to talk about.
sounds weird.
we hit off well.
exchange handphone no. with a few of them.
kianfai, andrew, minghuang, candy etc.
i think candy has something wrong with her brain.
keep hugging me then keep telling me how good is her figure.
lol.
kianfai still remembered that i used to go to the school bookshop everyday.
and i still remembered his house phone no.
it was like 6 years since i talked to him and i still remembered the number.
haha.
meet up with homer after that at singpost to have our lunch together.
didn't expect to see him today cause thought that he will stay in camp till late afternoon.
but was happy to see him.
after lunch, went to tanjong katong complex there to look for the shop call synwin.
selling cello, bass, violin etc.
the shop was pretty nice.
went to see mirror after that.
then homer send me home at around 3 plus.
cause he is going home early.
took a nap in the evening which lasted for 2hrs.
but still feel very tired when i woke up.
guess i wasn't use to take nap.
walked out to get my dinner after that cause my gastric was feeling unwell.
told homer about it.
he was sort of angry and disappointed in me.
sorry homer!
promise you that there won't be next time.
ate alone outside.
had vegetarian food.
it was sort of oily.
didn't manage to finish the food.
haha.
that was about it~

love homer.
hugs~

strictly on diet!

2008-08-28T05:31:00.000-07:00

guess i should stop emo-ing and get on with my life.
didn't get to post yesterday cause was sort of tired.
so let me just start with yesterday...

yesterday was wednesday.
27 august 2008'
was sort of happy.
cause i get to see homer today.
two days never see him already.
i'm getting the two-day-dont-see-homer withdrawal sydrome.
haha.
school lessons was as normal.
took back our geography paper at last.
thought i will passed with flying colours but end up failing.
no one passed in the level.
maybe the paper was too tough?
that's why no one passed.
that's what i think.
i studied real hard for the paper but still end up failing.
sms homer to tell him about it.
he cheered me up again.
telling me to have faith in myself.
i wasn't so disappointed upon knowing the results.
cause homer really did cheered me up and implant some confident cells in me.
so i wasn't failing too bad.
and instead, i'm going to work harder for the up-coming N'level.
i'm going to do myself and homer proud.
i must not give up.
haha.
lessons was as usual.
school ended at 1.35p.m.
and social studies remedial started at 2.30p.m. which is 2.10p.m. initially.
well, i make me feel so bad as homer was waiting for me for an hour outside school.
he came to school to wait for me to accompany me home.
sorry homer!
he bought me 2 boxes of granola bars.
cause i keep having gastric pain and i love skipping meals.
haha.
thanks homer for being so thoughtful!
dashed out of the classroom as soon as we were release from remedial.
went home with homer after that.
took bus no 26 home and reached home at 4.12p.m.
homer waited for me in the computer room at my house downstairs.
and i went home to bath and get changed to go out with him.
he waited for me for 45mins.
so sorry homer let you wait for me again.
then we took bus no 7 outside grandlink square to bedok central.
took homer to eat nice food.
we were having vegetarian food for dinner.
ordered three dishes.
the curry, the tofu and the yam basket.
haha.
homer keep on taking the yam for me.
and he ended up eating two bowls of rice.
but i guess the food was a bit too much for us.
had trouble finishing the yam basket.
i ate e lot of yam which is so starchy!
going to have exercise programme soon to keep myself in the shape.
then we went to the NTUC fairprice and homer bought some girly stuff.
haha.
shall keep mum about it.
our little secret.
took bus no 197 home from bus interchange.
reached home at around 8.15p.m.
homer accompany me at my house there till 9.15p.m.
we talked about quite a lot of things and had our time there.
after that we departed.
that was about it yesterday.

today was thursday.
28 august 2008'
went school in a wet uniform.
cause it started raining when i was walking to school with chingshin.
and i got wet.
lessons was rather heavy.
and i was feeling really cold though i wore my jacket.
was having maths for the first lesson.
and had physics lesson after maths.
then mrs poh was like aiming me.
she off all the fans for no sensible reason and said that since we're feeling cold, why waste electricity on-ing the fans.
she still said that if we were not cold, why someone in the class is wearing jacket.
and i was the only one wearing jacket.
so she was obviously talking about me.
the whole class was like looking at me.
then i no choice have to take off my jacket.
she on the fans again immediately after i took off my jacket.
i was like feeling hell.
cause i was feeling extremely cold.
no school rule says that student can't wear jacket to school.
there's probably something wrong with her brain i guess.
haha.
then after that lesson went on as usual.
classmates were crapping a lot.
and i got involved in some of their crapping conversation too.
i witness something which i shouldn't have see it.
saw rafi giving ziyi a slap on the face.
and ziyi was like giving the L.L. face.
well, he seems to be so innocent.
called homer during recess time to talk on the phone.
was sort of feeling sian.
cause homer is meeting his belle tonight for the instrument thing.
well, maybe i should just have more faith in him and myself.
then after that continued with two periods of chinese lessons and lastly two lessons of chemistry before we ended the day.
huishan asked me if i'm going back to MBS tomorrow.
but i still deciding.
haha.
there was remedial for maths today after school
it started at 1.35p.m. and ended at 2.20p.m.
was dead-beat.
called daddy to fetch me home.
then i got changed and went to the gym.
going to start my exercise programme.
thanks to homer yeah.
haha.
received sms from homer asking me if i was free to talk on the phone.
called him and talked on the phone while doing some workout in the gym. going to get back my flat tummy and muscular arms.
lol.
sound so wrong.
stayed in the gym till around 5p.m. and went home to get a pair of jeans for sister.
went to parkway parade to look for her.
she was alone there.
guess i stinks cause i didn't have to bath after i came out from the gym.
haha.
sister treat me to eat sakae sushi.
but i didn't order a lot.
cause rice is carbohydrates and most importantly, it is starchy!
took two plates of sushi and a plate of sashimi.
sister ordered quite a lot for herself.
she ate three soft-shell crab handrolls all by herself and still ordered a mango fried prawn sushi and still have others mixed sushi.
the mango fried prawn sushi was really huge.
they cut it into 6 parts.
i only ate 1 part and the other 5 parts was eaten by my sister.
she was really a big eater!
went to walk around after that and went home around 7.35p.m.
wanted to take bus home but my sister insist taking a cab.
though she was the one paying everything.
but still i think she should save a bit more.
reached home around 8p.m.
went to bath and now posting.
starting to miss homer.
my baobei homer, i miss you!
starting to get the dont-see-homer withdrawal sydrome!

starting my diet programme from tomorrow onwards.
going to survive on 2 bars of granola bars daily.

losing faith in myself...

2008-08-26T05:20:00.000-07:00

emo-ing shot

act-ing cute shot..

today school was kinda bored.
having physical education (p.e.) for the first two lessons.
was on the phone with homer throughout the two lessons.
then after that was social studies.
followed by maths.
took back our prelims maths paper.
flunk the paper.
was feeling dicourage and kinda sad.
sms homer to tell him about it.
he cheered me up and encouraged me.
but i was asking myself.
so what if i passed all the subjects and failed maths?
am i still going some where i want to go?
doubting my ability.
homer told me that he will be there for me and told me not to give up.
i was feeling sad and discourage at first.
but after all the encouragement and the strong belief from homer, i felt better.
xie xie ni homer!
didn't go for recess either.
stayed in class instead.
homer was sms-ing me all the while.
which makes me feel i wasn't alone.
recess ended soon.
have chemistry lessons after geography lessons.
teacher gave us back our paper.
was kinda happy that i cleared chemistry.
went through corrections etc.
then here comes our physics lessons after chemistry lessons.
mrs poh gave us back our physics paper too.
was glad that i was one of the passers.
so which means i have cleared my combined science.
now left my geography paper.
waiting for mrs yong to give us back after she marked.
so for the time moment, i can say that i passed every subject except for mathematics.
though was one of the better one in class, but still wasn't happy with the result i got.
just because of mathematics.
it wasn't my forte.
i didn't have strong foundation.
that's why i end up struggling for maths.
school ended at 1.35p.m. today.
called homer on the phone.
stayed back in class cause thought that there was CO self practice.
then received sms from junior to tell me that the practice was cancelled.
argh!
no one told me and make me waited in school.
but luckily got homer to accompany me on the phone.
he dropped down the phone at 2.10p.m.
cause he thought that he was going to have rehearse.
but later on receive sms from him to say that his rehearse was cancelled too.
haha.
then we talked on the phone again.
left school at around 3p.m.
went to hawker to hunt for my lunch.
had prawn noodles.
it was nice.
was still on the phone with homer.
reached home at 3.55p.m.
only put down the phone at around 4p.m.
which means that we have been talking for 2hrs!?
went to bathe after dropping the phone.
then did my social studies homework.
8 source-based questions!
which was like killing me.
write till my hand gonna break.
spent 2hrs doing it.
that was about it today~
perform well tonight homer!

counting down to N'level.
7 more days~
here i come my GREEN TEA ICE-CREAM!

was rather thankful to you damien.
glad to have you with me.
i cherish the time spend with you.
love you always~
13 days till our first month!

a day with homer...

2008-08-25T17:06:00.000-07:00

some photos taken @ toy 'r' us featuring homer.

some photos taken with homer @ vivocity

today is monday.

let me start off from yesterday.

yesterday is sunday.

homer came to my house to accompany me in the morning.

around 9a.m.

thought that he's going to be late.

but he didn't.

he bought beancurd for me and mixed vegetable rice for himself for breakfast.

and homer on the tv to watch discovery channel about the great wall of china early in the morning.

it was about history.

the tv programme ended at 10p.m.

i off the tv and homer went to my room and lie on my clean bed.

but after he lie on it, it has become the smelly bed.

he polluted it.

then homer told me that the bed wasn't comfortable for him and he took my pillow to sleep on the ground instead.

there goes my pillow!

i isn't sure if he drool on my pillow.

and i on some music to entertain myself.

keep asking homer if he was asleep that made him can't sleep.

haha.

so sorry homer.

i didn't know that you're such a extreme light sleeper.

he just can't get into sleep with me around and at last, he give up on sleeping.

we did a lot of crapping in room and i was punished by homer for punishing him at home on saturday.

the punishment was ''electric-shock''?!

OMG! i was screaming here and there and i end up lying on the bed.

haha.

i think someone break the record again.

there we go again~

then got changed and went to vivocity to walk around.

was pretty empty.

not much people there.

went to toy'r'us to do our usual hunting for innocent dolls and whack them for no sensible reasons.

homer kept bullying the elmo there and i took some photos of him with the elmo. (above)

that's the evidence of him bullying elmo.

then walked around and went to the outdoor space to sit and talked.

homer was starting the topic and we both went emo-ing through the conversation.

cause it was rather sad.

hope that homer did feel better after saying it out and shared it with me.

i am a good listener.

haha.

stayed there for about 2hrs till the rain had stopped and we took some photos there too. (above)

went to food republic for dinner and i bought fried prawn noodles for homer.

glad that he find it nice and like it.

wasn't really full after the plate of noodles and homer bought chee cheong fun.

realised that i can't hold the chopsticks well.

went to TANGS after dinner to shop.

and we went passed the ladies undergarment section.

and he wanted to look for those transparent type which he couldn't find one.

homer, seems that you're going to start your ''kee's exchange'' soon to design your own since you can't find those design you want.

and i said it, you dare to buy, i dare to wear.

haha.

so funny.

did a lot of crapping.

homer send me home on train after that.

choose to walked home from the mrt station instead of taking the bus cause can spent longer time with him though it was raining.

after that, we departed when i reached home.

that was about yesterday~

today is monday.

which means i have to go to school again.

was so tired.

wake up at 6.30a.m. in the morning to get prepared to go school.

lessons was as usual.

and english start the day off.

mrs chan told me that i was the second for the prelims and eurica was 2 marks higher than me.

followed by food and nutrition lessons which lasted for four lessons.

took back the prelims paper too.

afifah and kokboon had the highest score.

then was recess time after food and nutrition lessons.

called homer on the phone during recess time.

talked till the bells rang and went back class for lessons.

chinese lessons followed by geography lessons then lastly social studies lessons before the bells rang off to go home.

haha.

was so cold throughout the day today.

missed my homer's jacket.

took bus no. 26 home after school.

that was about it.

(honestly, i want to take part in the december competition.

but since chen lao shi choose zhanghe, then i also don't want to say anything.

i don't want to make you ''nan zuo ren'' just because you're the SL.

and also, i believe that chen lao shi had her reason for choosing zhanghe instead of me.

i don't want to tell you that i want to take part then you tell teacher about it then teacher choose me.

cause like that, it seems that she will choose me because i want to take part not because i'm good enough.

i have learn cello for 8 pathetic years going 9 year soon.

i know where i am.

but i also know chen lao shi too well le.

i'm starting to believe that i'm not so good as chen lao shi said.

i resigned to my fate.

nothing will succeed in my life.)

after my N'level, i was thinking about going to ITE to pursue the nursing course then go poly from there.

but i know you won't agree to it.

i told you before and you said that polytechnic is better.

but i wasn't interested in studies.

might as well go for something i want and i like.

i just don't know what to do.

Damien~everytime when something goes well, i have a feeling that it won't last.

now, our relationship is going smoothly but i'm really afraid to lose you. i seems to be weeping quietly inside my heart. you're treating me good. with concern and everything. it seems to be such a perfect relationship for me. i can't afford to lose you damien. I LOVE YOU...

2008-08-23T06:30:00.001-07:00

posting le.
was like two days posting one time.
haha.
was sort of busy lately.
playing with homer :))))
yesterday - 22 august 2008'
waken up by dad at around 7.50a.m. to go for breakfast.
was so damn tired.
but i still accompany him for breakfast.
dad fetch mom to work first then after that took his own sweet time before we can go for breakfast.
haha.
dad ordering steamed cod fish, fried veggies, soup etc for breakfast.
it was like too much for breakfast.
had yam rice.
dad keep stuffing me with the cod fish and i finish the whole plate of veggies by myself.
didn't manage to finish the rice.
drank a lot of soup.
thanks to dad.
keep saying ''must drink more soup, you're coughing and the soup is good for your throat''.
went to the library to slack after breakfast.
called homer to talk over the phone.
end up talking for 72mins with homer.
which was like 1hr 12 mins.
haha.
put down the phone only when dad called to bring me home.
wees!
realised that a guy had been following me since i reached till i leave.
OMG!
A STALKER!
so scary.
reached home around 1p.m.
was waiting for homer's sms to confirm the time to meet up.
in the end he sms me and say that his manager came and can't go off.
but i left my house at 3.20p.m.
went to singpost first, still waiting for homer's sms.
had a big cup of frozen yogurt.
yummy yummy!
then took the train to AMK instead cause homer says that he will be late and i'm trying to cut down the time.
so i end up taking the train to AMK at the risk that i might get lost.
haha.
luckily i reached AMK safely.
homer reached shortly after i reached.
then we took the train to khatib to change to bus to go pasir ris to attend his friend birthday chalet.
was drizzling when we reach pasir ris and we walked through the rain.
was rather cold but i kept mum.
reached the chalet shortly.
the chalet was just next to downtown east.
it was his ex classmate aaron 21th birthday.
don't know anyone there.
spotted three bottles of liquors there.
OMG! is tempting me!
haha.
stayed there for awhile then went to the newly opened shopping mall with homer to walk around.
intend to go home after our dinner but homer says go back to the chalet and wait for his friend to cut the birthday cake first then leave.
but then i still left early even before they cut the cake cause it was like getting late.
homer send me to the mrt then went back to the chalet.
that was about it yesterday~

today - 23 august 2008'
wake up as usually early to bath and change and go for my tuition.
was so tired due to insufficient hours of sleep.
haha.
dad dropped me at paya lebar mrt station and i took the train to simei.
after which i change to bus no. 39 to go tampines.
still have 5mins to 9.30a.m. when i reached.
went to mac to get my usual drink.
milo!
then went for tuition le.
the teacher was late.
he came at 10a.m. when it suppose to start at 9.30a.m.
tuition ended at 12.30a.m.
homer came to meet me at tampines to have our lunch.
and it started raining when we're having our meals.
took bus no.9 to homer's house after that.
finally get to drink my JW!
haha.
had 3-4 glasses of it.
only got one word to describe which is SHIOK!
asked for the 4th glass from homer but he just won't give me.
i'm not drunk yet.
watched WALL-E on the computer while having my marvellous drink.
after which homer show me some photos he took from australia and his previous performances.
realised that he took a lot of single photos with the belle.(you should know who is it)
should i say i'm jealous?
punished him for that.
haha.
guess it was enough.
then walked to the coffee shop to have our dinner and then homer send me home.
we walked through the connector to take bus no.2 home.
reached home at around 7p.m.
was sort of tired.
crap a lot today.
but it still wasn't enough for me.
going to be a second round tomorrow.
watch out homer!

Homer: take care wors. i passed my cough to you le and i'm guilty for that.
GET WELL SOON! Damien always~

2008-08-21T14:37:00.000-07:00

20 august 2008- wednesday
back to posting.
wake up around 8a.m. in the morning.
having swollen eyes, stuffy nose, sore throat and perhaps some fever?
haha.
was just so sick.
received sms from elaine.
asking me to meet her up for breakfast at geylang-east.
rejected her.
so sorry for that elaine.
cause i don't even have the energy to stand up to walk.
so sad la.
hmm. then went to bathe and do everything and went out.
took bus no 70 to singpost to settle my breakfast.
was still feeling bad.
called elaine to ask her if she wants to meet up earlier.
but she said that she just bought her breakfast and asked me to go her house.
took the train to aljunied.
intend to go her house but was too sick to walk around.
so end up staying at aljunied mrt station to wait for her.
she was late!
but never mind.
walked to school with her.
and my baobei called me on the phone.
talked to him till 10.20a.m. then go up to the hall for the geography prelim paper.
paper started at 10.32a.m. and ended at 12.02p.m.
realised that i did an extra question.
waste my time.
LOL!
then after the paper, went to bugis with huishan.
to collect my rings.
was pretty well engraved except some high and low.
haha.
but that don't affect much.
went to KFC with huishan for lunch.
can only watch her eat cause i'm still coughing like mad.
but i still managed to get a whipped potato.
it was like heaven to me.
after that, we went to dhoby ghaut to shop around.
went to that elmo's shop.
it just reminded me that i went there with my baobei yesterday.
walk to carrefour.
bought some whole-grain bread, cheese and ham.
intend to make some for homer on friday when i see him.
wees!
went home at around 2p.m.
called homer on the phone.
talked for quite long time.
after that, bathe and went to yvonne's house in the evening.
bought my dinner and had it there.
bak chor mee!
my favourite food.
only homer know that :)))))))
but was rather disappointing after eating for the first time.
it doesn't taste nice at all.
bought popiah for uncle.
glad that he like it.
then went home with sister at around 8.40p.m.
that was it for 20 august 2008'~

21 august 2008'-thursday.
wake up at 6a.m. as usual.
bath and get change.
daddy dropped me at the hawker centre opposite school.
was so suay.
a man knock onto me and splash his curry on my white shoes!
OMG!
my white shoe become curry shoe le.
haha.
then saw ching shin and walked to the school with him.
saw all my classmate busy revising for their exams in school.
joined in them.
flipped through the mathematics textbook but nothing can get into my brain.
cause i was feeling super-tired.
my baobei never reply my sms.
was wondering if he forget to bring his handphone out again.
make me sad sad le.
math paper 2 started at 8a.m.
the paper was sort of easy.
managed to complete the paper within the time given.
flu was getting worse in the examinaton hall.
fall asleep on the table after having an invisible battle with my flu.
paper ended at 10a.m.
finally my baobei homer replied me.
he woke up at 8 plus.
scare me..
haha.
went to the library to revise food & nutrition with kokboon.
hana and xintian join in shortly.
went up to the hall again at 10.30a.m. for my food & nutrition paper.
which is also my last paper.
yippi!
the paper was moderate.
not too difficult but can't consider easy too.
finish the paper in 1 hr and sleep through the other 30mins.
paper ended at 12p.m.
called daddy to fetch me home.
was still feeling sick.
dad dropped me at the roadside to buy beancurd.
was sort of craving of it.
after that reached home at around 1p.m.
and now posting.
going to have steak with sister and daddy for lunch.
yippi!

homer~sorry wors was like giving you attitude this few days.
i was like pretty upset and bothered by that problem. hope you will understand.

gosh! i'm getting the two-day-don-see-homer sydrome!
missing homer~
tomorrow going to bbq with him.
yippi!

2008-08-19T05:52:00.000-07:00

photo taken at cheng san after concert on 16 august 2008'
photographer=melissa!

back to posting.
left out yesterday post when posting yesterday.
haha.
yesterday school ended pretty early.
around 11.30a.m.
cause was having combined science paper for prelims.
baobei was on MC.
he was having piles.
going for surgery to remove it.
(hope you're not scared of it. i'll be here for you!)
was pretty worried about him.
he came to school to look for me.
went to geylang east library to rest.
junhao was with other guys.
still says that we didn't have the guts to walk pass them.
(pls la. stop your childish acts. is enough. is time to grow up)
is just that we don't want to create trouble that's why i pulled damien to the alternative route.
haha.
forget it.
can't be bothered with him.
lalalas~
look through some surgery book to know more about piles.
was rather gross.
then after that baobei borrowed a book on web designing.
intend to lend him my NRIC to borrow cause his card can't be used.
but instead found out that i owe the library S$25!
OH MY GOD!
in the end he still used his own card to borrow.
was raining quite heavily and we dashed through the road to the mrt station.
took the train to bedok to meet zhenyao to take tickets.
after that went for our lunch at the hawker there.
and we depart there too.
that was about yesterday~

today tuesday - 19 august 2008'
was having mathematics papar 1.
the paper was rather tough.
and i was having a invisible war with my flu.
was sneezing throughout the whole exam.
sicked.
then after school took a cabby home.
cause was feeling very dizzy and i was very cold outside.
can't stand it even with my baobei's jacket on.
cost me less than $4 for the taxi fare.
reached home called my baobei then went to bath.
get out of my house at around 11.15a.m. to take a bus to serangoon mrt station then took the train to sengkang to visit my grandparents.
was around 12 .20p.m. when i reached there.
then went off at 1.30p.m. to catch the mrt to dhoby ghaut to meet homer.
around 2.3op.m.
couldn't find the escalator down.
and homer was laughing at me non-stop.
so bad :(((((
walked around plaza singapura then had our lunch there too.
suggested to go bugis to get our couple rings after our meals.
took bus no. 2 home after that and homer send me home.
both of us were emo-ing on the way home.
didn't talk much.
i started emo-ing when i was at the food court in plaza singapura.
hais..
but i'm alright now.
haha.
reached home at around 6.30p.m.
and now posting..

baobei, sorry wors just now so emo and didn't talk to you much cause i was thinking over that problem. hope you don't mind about that.

LOVE DAMIEN ALWAYS~
12 days with you.

2008-08-18T02:39:00.000-07:00

some random pictures i took with homer on 16 august- Fire concert @ esplanade

picture took with Zheng lao shi and wanyin on 16 august fire concert @esplanade.

a gift from homer after the concert. A talking ELMO!

love it~ thanks homer.

wOo~

saturday was a fun and tiring day indeed.

woke up at 6a.m. to bath and pack everything into my wonder bag.wore the topshop black dress with my new butterfly belt.

haha.

hope homer would find it nice :)))

then dad fetch sister to work first then fetch me to mrt station to meet up with homer at around 7.30a.m.

hop on to the train when homer reached paya lebar.

then took the train to ang mo kio to go cheng san cc.

reached there at around 8.20a.m.

homer had the fish porridge first then went to help to load the instrument onto the truck.

homer said that i put too much pepper into the porridge le.

sad.

spoilt my porridge :((((((

i helped in the loading instrument too.

haha.

then went off to esplanade in the bus with homer.

was so tired.

slept on homer's shoulder then he kept pushing my head back.

cause i was like keep falling in front.

reached esplanade at around 11a.m.

help to unload the instrument into the backstage.

then after that change into the costume and do some make up.

after that had our lunch.

full-dress rehersal started at 1p.m. and ended at 5.30p.m.

was feeling so sleepy when rehersing cause i took the flu medicine.

had our dinner after the rehersal.

then walked around the backstage exploring with homer.

went to the green house and settled down for the time to pass till 7pm.

took some random picture at the green house (above).

really did enjoyed my time with homer.

concert started at 7.30p.m.

i was feeling extremely tense though it wasn't my first time on stage.

cause the music pieces was so damn tough.

but the worse thing is that Mr Lee changed the bowing on the stage!!

it isn't the first time already and i'm really angry about him for doing that.

argh!

concert ended at 9.30p.m.

was sort of relief.

phew~

took photos with the ministers.

and the ministers went around shaking hand with us and i was like lack of wordings.

then after that keep our instruments and changed back to our clothing which is much more comfortable.

haha.

took photo with zhanghe and a combined photo with zheng lao shi and wanyin. (above)

help to load the instruments back to the truck again after that and took the bus back to cheng san.

was so damn tired.

but still help to unload the instrument again upon reaching cheng san.

went off earlier than the others with homer.

took train back home and homer insisted sending me home though he was tired himself.

he was worried that i go home myself cause i stayed in geylang area.

xie xie ni wors homer.

then after that he walked to the bus stop to catch the last bus back home.

by that time it was already 12 midnight.

it was a tired but happy day with homer around.
tired tired. love love~

17 august 2008~sunday

meet up with homer early in the morning at around 10a.m to go cycling.

sorry wors homer know you so tired after the performance still ask you out early in the morning.

reached east coast park at around 10.30a.m.

then started cycling at around 10.45a.m.reached changi beach that around 12 plus.

haha.

homer's leg was going to break.

cause we rented a double bike and he sat in front.

had ipoh hor fun for lunch.

very nice :))

but homer ate banana fritter.

TEMPTATION!

it is tempting me.

i can't eat fried food, cold food etc.

so sad.

after that we ride the bike to changi beach to have our time there till 3p.m.

took random photos too.

enjoy the time with him.

then cycle back to east coast park.

the way back seems to be shorter.

and it was raining.

homer and i were both wet.

but we continue cycling to the shop to return the bike.

haha.

ate our cheese-tuna sandwiches after that.

then walked to marine parade to go borders.

after that went to hawker centre intending to have our dinner ther.

but end up i having fever.

homer bought me breads and send me home to rest.

thanks homer~

love you so much.

HUGGIES!

2008-08-15T06:11:00.000-07:00

wOo~

didn't get to post yesterday.

was sort of busy.

hmm.

yesterday reached school v.early.

saw ching shin in the hawker early in the morning and we had our drinks together.

after that, walked back to school.

hahas.

thought that we're still early when we walked back to school but when we step into the school gates, ding dong. ding dong. the bell goes off.

luckily wasn't late for flag raising.

if not, name will be taken down then if exceed three times in a row, LRC will be given.

lessons was boring.

teachers were late etc.

had maths remedial after lessons till 2.15p.m.

was rather tired.

called daddy to fetch me home.

cause meeting my baobei homer at 4p.m.

reached home, bath and get changed and went out again.

(see i so guai you asked me to wear long pants and i wore.hahas)

meet baobei at AMK mrt station.

then went to Ang Mo Kio hub to walk around.

slacking.

hahas.

but we also create lots of memorable moments.

I lost 3 betting in a row.

OMG! i lose to homer.

ultimate sadness.

luckily he didn't pull me up to the ''snoopy car''

consider myself lucky

:)))))))))

went to S11 for our dinner after that.

had penang prawn noodles.

couldn't eat in peace because of HOMER!

lols.

then after dinner, we went to the park near by to have our own time

(bad homer.naughty boy.hahas)

went to cheng san for practice at 6 plus.

but started late at around 7.30p.m.

and practice ended at 10p.m.sharp.

took train back home with homer.

he send me home.

xie xie ni bao bei. so tired le still send me home.

loves~

then today...

started the day with 2 periods of english.

was killing me though i like english.

but my flu make me so drowzy.

feel like sleeping thoughout the day.

didn't go for recess either.

stayed in class to change my music scores for tomorrow performance instead.

school ended at 12.25p.m.

didn't go to the geography and social studies remedial.

was too sick.

went to see doctor instead.

then after that went back school for CO practice.

went to bugis after that.

intend to get something.

but sadly it was too much out of my budget.

so i didn't buy it.

walked around after that.

and i saw something

i guess this should look familiar to homer.

chucky!

the evil doll.

OMG!

still need to cost $150 for this evil ugly looking doll.

free also i won't buy.

hahas.

then took train to paya lebar and change to bus 70 to go home.

looking through my cupboard.

still thinking what to wear to meet homer tomorrow.

meeting my baobei at 7.30a.m. tomorrow.

need to reach cheng san at 8.30a.m. to load instruments etc then head to esplanade for performance at night.

can't wait to see my friends.

and of my homer!

miss you badly.

cooking for my baobei tomorrow.

hope homer will like it.

i am getting the one-day-don-see-homer withdrawal sydrome.

help!

loves homer~

2008-08-13T07:10:00.000-07:00

today nothing much to post.
having fever, cough, sore throat and a really bad flu.
school was as usual.
ended at 1.35p.m.
then took train to tampines mall to collect some things.
homer called me to chat on the phone.
making my journey UN-lonely.
hahas.
after that went back school for CO practice.
was so damn bored.
zheng lao shi and liang lao shi came together.
practice lasted till around 5p.m.
ended 1hour earlier due to the common test for all sec 1 to sec 3.
called daddy to fetch me home.
cause wasn't feeling comfortable.
was wishing that homer was by my side.
but he is having his motor bike theory test.
so is okays.
hmm. wish homer will pass all his theory and practical test.
didn't see him for the whole day today.
he told me he was having the one-day-don-see-elmo sydrome.
hahas.
we are both missing each other.
but never mind tomorrow is coming and i can get to see homer.
having CO practice at cheng san tomorrow till 10 plus?!
going to be a long day for me and homer tomorrow.
must rest early
:))))))))

elmo love homer. FOREVERS!

homer-must take care wors. must take medicine, must drink water and plenty of rest! love you~

2008-08-10T07:15:00.000-07:00

080808-08 August 2008

today is a day to remember.

hahas.

hmm. 080808. a good day to be remember.

school ended at 10.30am.

after that went to singpost to have my breakfast with huishan, lena and karen.

reached home at around 12 plus?

hahas.

then bath and went out again to changi general hospital to visit my grandpa.

suppose to be his birthday today but end up in the hospital.

homer went to visit with me :)))

hold hands together? hahas.

after that we went to the canteen for a drink then to the fish pond there inside CGH then after that we went to the playground at the HDB flats there.

we were talking halfway through then homer asked me something.

i know he is trying to be sincere and convincing.

but he really look weird when he's trying to be serious.

that's why i can't stop laughing.

sorry homer!

we're like from trial to reality.

a walk in the simei - bedok park connector after dinner makes the day memorable with the accompanyment of homer.

we road was long.

but i was hoping that the road was longer so homer could be with me for longer.

the send me home after that.

took bus no 24 then walked home~

090808-09 August 2008

today is national day!

hahas.

but sadly there is still tuition.

wake up rather early.

around 7am.

was still so sleepy cause whole night couldn't sleep.

homer waited for me at the macdonald at tampines.

then had lunch together.

bak chor mee?

sounds familiar.

then after that took bus 12 then change to bus 24 at tanah merah.

help my papa to get something before going home.

reached home around 2 plus going 3pm.

do some housework then bath and go out.

meet homer at 5pm to go marina there to watch fireworks.

cityhall was like so crowded.

squeezing through here and there.

then end up in swissotel.

had some liquer in the bar with homer.

i got lycheetini and he got singapore sling.
hahas.

luckily didn't get drunk hurhur.

under 16 but still manage to get a drink in the bar.

thanks to homer.

hahas.

took some photos with homer too.

was drizzling and we stay in the bar for around 40mins.

then went to walk around to look for a place which we can see fireworks.

but end up squeezing here and there in the crowd.

we gave up and when to walk around in the shopping malls.

was quite disappointed.

went to suntec, carrefour.

saw yanting there.

she was like shocked why am i with homer.

hahas.

then intended to walk to esplanade but the road was blocked and we went to singapore flyer instead.

walked around then walked to the bus stop to go home.

catch bus 70.

even the bus was so crowded.

luckily got homer around.

he sent me home then accompany me until sister came home.

hahas.

ate the ''ai xin pai'' bread for dinner make by homer.

was so full.

reached home at around 10.30pm.

took a bath and went to sleep immediately.

100808-10 August 2008

wake up damn early today.

around 7am.

was also damn tired.

but have to wake up early to bath and meet homer at mrt station to go cheng san cc for usual practice.

had our breakfast nearby then walked to the cc for practice.

people were gossiping about us when we reached but i kept mum.

but was like laughing in my heart.

hahas.

evil elmo.

practice start at around 10.40am.

i was still so sleepy and i was getting cold.

waiting for the time to pass.

homer was walking around doing his stuff.

had our lunch time at 1.30pm till 2.30pm.

didn't eat for lunch cause breakfast have not digest.

then practice as usual after lunch.

practice ended at 5.15pm.

was sort of relieve.

went to orchard to walk around.

then went to bugis for dinner.

took bus 2 to go home after that.

something did happened but can't tell.

so sorry..hahas.

then reached home around 9pm.

homer, don't drink your cold drinks and put your chili aside if you want youe cough to get better ok.

hmm..080808 and 100808 is days to be remembered.

2008-08-06T05:20:00.000-07:00

Watch out for my claw! Act cute shot 1

Act cute shot 2

Looking in the air..

Emo-ing

Some random photos i took just now.

i know i am not photogenic.

But i love taking photos. Wees~

so much things happened recently.

hope that it will be over soon..

2008-07-22T02:41:00.000-07:00

had not been posting recently.
so damn tired after all the remedial from monday to friday.
except tuesday :)))))))
hahas.
N'level is drawing closer but my studying mood is still not there.
start to kan-choing already.
but can't force myself to study.
what the hell.
hais...
there was once i heard it from the TV that a speaker says we are all living for the sake of paper.
when we're born, we need birth certificate. (1st paper)
then when we go school, we need to get certificate too. e.g. degrees, master) to get good jobs (3rd paper)
when we start working, we work for money ( 4th paper)
and even when we die, we need death certificate (last paper)
so, aren't we living for the sake of paper?
is paper really so important to us that we can't live without it?
hais..
i'm super tired.
i wanna give up on eveything.
do you understand?
hais...

CAN'T SMILE WITHOUT YOU
(This song is dedicated to my dearest O.JUNHAO)

you know i can't smile without you.
i can't smile without you.
i can't laugh and i can't sing.
i'm finding it hard to do anything.

you see i feel sad when you're sad
i feel glad when you're glad.
if you only knew what i'm going through
i just can't smile without you.

you came along just like a song
and brighten my day
who would have believed that
you were part of a dream
now it all seems light years away

and now you know i can't smile without you.
i can't smile without you.
i can't laugh and i can't sing
i'm finding it hard to do anything

you see i feel sad when you're sad.
i feel glad when you're glad
if you only knew what i'm going through.
i just can't smile

now people say happiness takes
so very long to find
well, i'm finding it hard
leaving your love behind me

and you see i can't smile without you
i can't smile without you.
i can't laugh and i can't sing
i'm finding it hard to do anything

you see i feel glad when you're glad
i feel sad when you're sad.
if you only knew what i'm going through.
i just can't smile without you.

today is my 1 year 1 day with you.
love you. last long for eternity.

2008-07-18T05:52:00.000-07:00

Qns : The person who tagged you is?
Ans : XINYI!

Qns : What is your relationship with him/her?
Ans : Good friend. :D

Qns : Your 5 impression of him/her?
Ans : cheerful, caring, cute, blur-blur && sweet.

Qns : The most memorable thing he/she has done for you?
Ans : erhhs .. don't know. hahas.

Qns : The most memorable thing he/she has said to you?
Ans: I LOVE YOU!

Qns : If he/she becomes your lover, you will ...?
Ans : love her loads :))))))

Qns : If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improves on?
Ans : her LOUD laughter

Qns : If he/she becomes your enemy, you will ...?
Ans : avoid her

Qns : If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
Ans : snatching my bf. hahas. (not possible)

Qns : The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is?
Ans : hugging her~

Qns : Your overall impression on him/her?
Ans : as blur as a SOTONG!

Qns : How do you think people around you will feel about you?
Ans : very dao && unfriendly (cus i hardly smile)

Qns : The character you love of yourself are ...?
Ans : faithful && loyal

Qns : On the contrary, the character you hate yourself are ...?
Ans : unfriendly :((((((((

Qns : The most ideal person you want to be is?
Ans : to be a good GF and someone thoughtful :DDD

Qns : For people who care and like you, say something to them.
Ans : I LOVE YOU! hugs~

Qns : Pass this quiz to 10 people (random)
Ans : 1) JUNHAO
2) ELAINE
3) RUIYUN
4) TSUTING
5) WEILIN
6) JUNYI
7) HUAKIM
8) HUAGEK
9) EUGENE
10) WEIJING

Qns : Who is number 06 having relationship with?
Ans : no one

Qns : Is 09 a male or a female?
Ans : male

Qns : If 07 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
Ans : i guess so :/

Qns : How about 05 && 08?
Ans : lols. not suitable lahs.

Qns : What's number 02 studying about?
Ans : i dont' think she is studying

Qns : When was the last time you chatted with number 03?
Ans : Today?

Qns : Is number 04 single?
Ans : i don't know :/

Qns : Talk something casually about number 01
Ans : he is my BELOVED!

Request by XINYI~
HUGGIES.

Going 1 year with my beloved pigpig!
2 more days to go.
i'm waiting.

2008-07-04T08:05:00.000-07:00

was like so long never post already.
going to like 1 month soon.
hahas.
so many things happen recently that i don't want to mention in my blog.
anyone wants to know can just ask me about it.
okays.
i realised that i like him!
really like him.
hais..
but what is the point.
i had tell him already.
but it is like still the same.
hais...

2008-06-14T09:06:00.000-07:00

so let me keep silence for 1mins.
to commemorate ruixiang.
he just passed away.
known him for around 2 years,
he is from temasek polytechnic & cheng san CO.
he is a very very very nice chap.
most importantly, good in CELLO & BASS!
i thought he is going to be my teacher for this few weeks.
hais...good people always die so early.
was shocked when i just heard the news.

someone just left me again.
so many people leave me lately ohs.
my heart sanks.
revive it please.
yesterday was slacking with them at east coast park.
then bugis then kallang leisure park.
so tired.
talked about a lot of things.
my heart is a bit of lighten.
finally say it out.
we went to waterloo street there to pray.
but i can't hold joss-sticks.
then that auntie alice gave a lot of ideas to deal with JERKS.
was happy over there.
went home at around 6p.m.?
i guess so.
slacking at my house downstairs with her.
was happy again.
lighten?

today,
went for tuition early in the morning.
he was later then me.
talked to him.
and i told him that's the end for us.
break all connections.
hais..
tomorrow going to cheng san.
about ruixiang probs.
hope everthing will be alright.
:)))))))))))))))))))

2008-06-08T00:37:00.000-07:00

7 days never post already.
did anyone miss my blogging?
hahas.

hmm..let me just start from thursday bahs.
wake up around 9a.m.
was woken up by the hammering sounds upstairs larrhs.
can't get back to sleep after being woken up.
people came to my house to repair the water leakage problems.
went to Changi General Hospital for physiotherapy myself around 1p.m.
took the mrt from paya lebar to simei.
was listening to my phone mp3 all the while.
reach simei at around 1.20p.m.
then went to eastpoint to buy bubble tea first before walking to the hospital.
waited for quite a long time at the rehab clinic before it was my turn.
cus it was lunch time.
my appt. time was at 1.50p.m.
but i only went in around 2.30p.m.
the physiotherapist said the same thing.
posture posture posture!!
tilt my pelvis like a bowl.
argh! i just can't do that.
then the therapist said that she had not seen any one with such stiff shoulders and back.
i'm the first one.
she did quite a lot of exercises for me which really hurts.
can only say ouch!
after the physiotherapy session, took the train again to eunos and change to bus 60.
that is to go to my cousin's house.
went there just to borrow their computer.
cus my computer was down for the past few days and i promise to help him do the SS online discussion.
but both my PC and my laptop.(laughs)
stay there until 6.30p.m. then went for dinner with my sister outside.
had western food.
not nutrition i know(bad for him)
:(((((
saw my cousin and andy at the coffeeshop and also shawn.
then took bus 21 to go home...
toot toot...

Friday?
did nothing much.
wake up at 9a.m. and prepare a pizza for him.
cus going to skool to look for him at 10a.m.
he is having NCC camp.
3 day 2 night in skool with scouts and girl guides
from friday to sunday.
meet him up in skool.
listen to my tummy.hugs and kisses.
he went back to his camp after 40mins with me.
i am alone again larrhs.
stayed back in skool for 2 hours and did my holiday homework outside the staff room.
went to hawker to have my lunch after that.
called my daddy to fetch me and we went home.
slacked at home the whole day...

saturday which is yesterday.
wake up at 7.50a.m.
bath everything and dad fetch me to the mrt station.
took a train to tampines.(bought a Macdonalds' breakfast set meal eat it when i'm in the bus) change to bus 28 to go to my tuition.
was a bit of late.
but never mind :)
was raining very heavily.
luckily brought a jacket with me.
cus i predicted that it will rain.(laughs)
reach the tuition there at 9.30a.m. on the dot just nice.
but the teacher is already there.
lessons started as usual.
but copied a lot of notes.
was really tiring.
then somemore the teacher talk and write so fast.
i can't really follow.
:(((((((((((
after tuition, went to tampines mall and get A4 size exercise book and fulscap papar.
running out of it already.
then took a train home again form there.
saw barbara at paya lebar mst station.
she didn't know that i've quitted the tuition.
she called me to go tuition together but i said i going somewhere else which is going home.
hais...
stayed at home all the while until night time.
took train again to vivocity to watch movie.
watch kungfu panda.
was really funny.
but i am really lonely.
:(((((((((((((((((
went home after that.

sunday.today.
wake up at 7.50a.m.again.
bath etc and went to sophia centre for something...
was really pain and scared.
hais.sadded.
went hom at around 2p.m. from there and now posting while resting.

2008-06-01T20:56:00.025-07:00

So many things falls on me lately.
hais...
problem with junhao.
waiting to be solve.
went to tell people about it.
i already tell you don't tell anyone.
but you end up telling 3 people about it.
and think that i am suspicious.
to think that i joke around with this kind of problems.
hais...
right now at this stage you think that i am joking?
i don't know what to say lers.
:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
yesterday called yijie in the evening.
talked to her about problems.
she told me about evrything junhao told her.
our conversaton really lasted for a long time.
i came to know so much things.
i was kept in the dark for such a long time.
hais...
then he called yijie then we end up in a conference with my mouth shut tight.
i heard everything he said to her.
he says that if she wants him to ignore me, he will ignore me.
if she wants him to care me, he will care me.
i feel so much like a toy to him.
she asked him if he loves me.
he says don't like.etc etc.
he just don't understand the pain i'm going through.
i'm like facing it alone.
hais...
just too much things to be type out.
:(((((((((
after the conversation, he called me.
i told him about it.
then he says that he still love me.
so is love or don't love????!!!
is complicated.
i feel that he is just saying that to coax me to do.
cus he told yijie that he don't love me anymore!
:((
but i really feel a lot better after talking to her about this issue.
thanks yijie.
:)))
but what should i do now?
keep or don't keep?
hais...
i'm just extra.

2008-05-28T02:22:00.000-07:00

back to blogging.
:))
so tired larrhs now a days need to go back skool for extra lessons.
sianz lors.
hais...
monday..
went back skool for execution for N'level.
food and nutrition! is driving me nuts.
cooked 4 dishes.
savory eggs, devil eggs, egg pocket && hard boiled egg with onion and celery.
the dishes just looked so yucky.
got 21/25 for my dishes.
hehes quite a good grade.
cus put in effort and hard work..
then went home after that.
:))))))))))))))))
tuesday..
started our extra lessons.
so tired larrhs.
hais..lesson after lesson.
then somemore having sore eyes.
red and swollen for both my eyes.
pain && itchy.
sobs...
went to macdonalds after skool with junhao.
was very rush.
then after eating, was angry with him.
he went home himself.
i waited at interchange for my grandma to go tampines.
went to M1 to check on the stuff.
bought 2 cakes for grandma at angie the choice.
coffee && chocolate flavors.
hehes:)))
then went to bedok reservior with her.
bought 2 new pairs of skool shoes and a slippers.
grandma paid everything for me dehs.
xie xie ni ohs.
then took bus no 21 to go home..
;)))))))))))))
today..
he wake up late in the morning AGAIN!
reached skool around 7.20a.m. already..
scolded me jibai and fucker early in the morning.
hais..
forget it...
then lesson went on. break after every lesson.
so bored.
nothing to do.
stayed in the classroom; slacked.
then in the end, only me and junhao stayed for physics lesson.
only two of us attended the lessons.
lols.
after skool, went to have lunch with him and his mom.
he scolded me idiot fucker.
hais
then went home.
:))))))))))))))))))))))))

junhao:
honestly if you can't live up to my expectation, then break up bahs.
i can't stand it with idiots around.
and my expectation is already very low.
delete her and that's it.

NONSENSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-05-25T04:16:00.000-07:00

i love you, junhao, with all my heart.my soul.my body.
every part of me wants to love you.
yearning for your love too.
but this doesn't seems to happen on me.
we are no longer like before.
now, i seems to be the only one holding on to this relationship.
no one is holding me.
i feel dead.
i no longer feel your love for me anymore.
i am trying to make my heart dies.
i am really trying very hard.
but i fail.
cus my heart still want to be with you.
you once told my heart that you will love me forevers and forevers.
and i told myself you are the right guy for me.
you're going to be the guy standing next to me in the church in 10 years time.
i remember that we went to marriot hotel to celebrate your brother's birthday this year.
i told you that the atmosphere there was really stunning and romantic.
and you told me that we will be there together went we are 21 years old.
you told me to wait for you.
after your NS.
i promise you i will do so.
but now...
so much things have happen between us for the past few months.
i know everything gotta be change.
maybe i wasn't the right girl for you.
to you i am irritating,unreasonable and ridiculous.
even my concern for you have become extra.
our communication have cut down.
sms.talk time.
just everything.
i feel so odd one out everytime now.
i wasn't needed.
i keep pestering you to leave her.
but you asked me who am i to ask you to do that.
i got nothing to say.
i am just nobody.
after all the pestering, you still didn't leave her.
i even break up a few times with you because of this issue.
i told you that if you don't leave her i will break up with you.
you just simply think that i am threatening you and nothing else.
but i can tell you that don't make my heart breaks one more time.
cus i am going to leave you for sure this time.
i'm tired.
i don't want to hold on to something that does not belong to me.
you told me not to ask anything from you cus you are not able to give me.
you told me my blogskin doesn't look nice. my blog song just sucks.
everthing you say i did remember.
you threw away the cheesecake i make for you cus you say it taste sour when i spend the whole night making it for you.
but is ok.
you promise to love me with all you can.
you promise to hold my hands forevers.
you promise to give me the best you can.
but now you tell me that you can't give me anything and tell me not to ask anything from you anymore.
my heart struggled.
from the first time we quarrel to the first time you hit me.
everything is kept in my heart.
you told me that you can't tell me anything but you can tell her everything.
i thought that as your girlfriend, i'll be able to share everything of you.
but now you no longer trust me.
i really don't understand who am i to you.
an outsider?
a girlfriend in name?
or just someone you used to sms her or call her everyday?
i used to think that i really understand you.
but now i think that i really don't understand you at all.
hais...

2008-05-23T23:42:00.000-07:00

one day never post already.
really miss it.
now a days are really into blogging yas.
;)
hmm..let me start from yesterday.
is friday.
woke up very early although there is no skool.
at 7.50a.m.
got to go to mummy's salon.
zzZz...
so sleep larrhs.
can't even open my eyes.
cus sleep very late at night.
was on the phone with him at night.
his mom just closed one case.
earn big bucks.
went to TCC to celebrate.
i was left alone.
he hanged down my call thrice.
saying that i'm irritating or i'm too much and hanged it.
i was crying the whole night.
hais...i just didn't know why.
:(
then went to skool at 2p.m.
for some activity larrhs...
called him at night time before going for dinner.
hanged up his call cus need to go for dinner already and mom is screaming like hell for us.
reach home at only 12.10a.m.
was really late.
went to bed immediately.
:(((
today...
woke up once at 9a.m.
cus he sms me and i replied him.
he is not going for tuition.
hahas.
and i went back to my bed..
start snoring and drooping (disgusting)
joking larrhs...
woke up at 10.12a.m. again
cus he called me.
and talked for a min before putting down the call.
went back to bed...
only wake up at around 11a.m.
get change and wash up to go for brunch.
breakfast + lunch = brunch
hahas..
guess what i eat.
big prawn noodles.
really huge!
then after that went home to do all the chores.
took me really much time..
sms him and his mom to ask whether i can join him at night for dinner.
both of them didn't reply.
hais..
then he called me..
talk on and on.
and now finally can sit down to post lers.
muahahas
:)))))))))))

2008-05-22T01:20:00.000-07:00

today is just another day for me.
bought 2 bottles of blackcurrant sparkling juice.
which come in glass bottles.
really look like red wine.
hahas.
bought it to celebrate my 10th month with pigpig.
cus yesterday didn't really celebrate.
i wanted to celebrate today morning.
but in the end we only drank 1 bottle cus pigpig couldn't open his bottle.
we shared 1 bottle.
hahas.
hugs~
hais..
quarrel quarrel quarrel.
everyday quarrel.
i am tired already.
do you know that?
during lessons time asked you to join my but you don't want.
and you went to join hana they all.
i really don't know what to do already.
recess time we quarrelled.
then you went down to the canteen alone.
i went to your table and saw something crave on it.
''FUCKER MEIZHI'' is what i saw.
i am very angry with you and went to the canteen to look for you.
and in the end i toppled two cups of milo.
hais...
then we went back to class and you explain to me that it was a misunderstanding.
you told me you wrote fucker first then after that then write my name on.
i stared at it for a few seconds before responding.
after that we cleared the misunderstanding and resume with our english lessons.
watch the movies on discrimination.
''Freedom writers''
is really a nice movie.
based on a true story.
after that we quarrelled again when we collect our report book back.
hais...
then on our way home, also like that.
he was a few metres in front of me.
hahahas.
accompanying him home from train to bus.
hit his stomach in the train.
didn't know it will hurt so much.
i'm sorry.
then after that walked to hsi house there with him.
with a really big distance between us.
hais..
then went home myself.
now blogging..sadded...

i love you junhao.
10 months 1 day with you..
hugs~muacks.

2008-05-21T03:00:00.000-07:00

today is my 10th month with him.
guess what?!
hais.
it wasn't a happy one.
he was late in the morning.
reached at 7.11a.m.
then went to skool hall for assembly.
something happen there that frustrated me that he didn't realised.
in class also..
he promised me to leave her finally.
but my heart feels empty.
i am worried that it is a empty promises again.
i need someone to fill it full for me.
sigh..hais..
i realised that most of my anniversary did not pass happy but sadly.
skool was as usual.
lessons end at 1.35p.m.
he says will accompany dehs.
we stayed in class for about 5mins then he went to call his mom.
he says he don't want to stay in skool for some reason.
but go outside skool.
hais.
in the end we end up sitting at one of the void deck.
we quarrelled.
then he took a cab home with me in it.
he wants to fetch me home first.
but i don't want.
i don't want to go home.
i feel even emptier when i go home.
hais..
who will understand my pressure?
who will even care about me?
he don't seems to care...
the world seems dull.
my future seems bleak.
i called him just now.
he never delete her name and link away.
i wanted him to do so.
i'm getting frustrated again.
we hanged up the call.
he called me back just now and told me that he won't treat me good like the past few days.
perhaps i am also tired of that already.
i am numb.
does it make a differences?
hais.
i have been living in fear everyday.
do you know that?
hais...

happy 10th month together junhao.
i love ue.
210707-210508

2008-05-20T03:52:00.000-07:00

i thought things will really turn well yeahs?
just change my blogskin.
hope ue guys like it.

hmm..quite a lot of things happen lately.
let me start from yesterday...
it was vesak day.
had to eat vegetarian for three meals nahs.
was being force to.
but it was also quite nice larrhs.
hahas...
me and pigpig are getting better.
but still having a issue that is bothering me.
is about her.
i want so much for him to leave her.
but he says cannot.
i received so many CANNOT from him.
he CANNOT leave her
he CANNOT give me anything for 9th && 10th mths.
he CANNOT go out with me..
etc..go on and on..
hais...
grandma and uncle's wife-to-be came to visit us.
was like so weird.
hahas.
then after they leave, cousin bryan and brandon came to look for me to go swimming with them..
they went home after that.
did enjoy my time with them yas.
went for dinner at night.
around 9p.m.
is vegetarian again.
ohs. is killing me.
lols...

today..
skool resume as normal.
lessons was as normal.
was caught by xiao wee, our form teacher for coloured nail and unpin hair at the sides..
was like so suay..
then she says''meizhi ue used to be such a neat girl''
lols.
but after all her talkings i still pin up my hair larrhs.
so guai lorrs.
hahas.
went back to class for lessons.
then mdm ernie was like saying ''i can see meizhi putting in effort''.
and she add on saying ''i think meizhi can motivate that boy''
and the boy is junhao
then everyone was like looking at me.
after skool waited for him at the canteen.
then received a phone call from pigpig's mother.
accompany him home after that.
was actually ok on the way home until at the bus stop.
he like shouted at me for so loud.
he said that i was delaying his time and walked off..
hais..
went home after that in bus no.2.
sister told daddy about my results.
got a bit of scoldind and i cried.
not because of being scolded but is more of guilty larrhs..
hais..
aiya.don't know what to post already.
shall stop here..

tomorrow is our 10th month anniversary lers..
I love you.

2008-05-14T04:35:00.000-07:00

today took back our exams scripts.
thought that my results will be ideal as i think.
but it turn out to be another way round.
hais..
:((
i thought this will be my best result ever.
but it turn out to be the worse result ever.
i cried from the second period till recess time.
pikachu cheer me up.
xie xie ni wors. hugs~
:)
i thought i will be able to pass all.
but end up only pass a couple of them.
it is disappointing right?
what am i going to do with my N' level?
pikachu did pretty well this time round.
i'm happy for him too.
was sort of depressed.
mainly from three problems.
firstly is from my pikachu's parents.
his parents already like don't really like me lers.
then now my mid-year is so badly done.
how to face them?
hais..
:)))
today still lie to his mom that 1 only failed combined humanities.
don't know how..
secondly is from my parents.
they do pins hopes on me.
i don't know how to break the news to them.
is not because that i'm scared that they will scold me.
but i am scared that they will be so disppointed.
lately my family have a lot of problem already.
i still have face to ask them to worry for me.
hais..
lastly is from myself.
i can't face myself.
i don't know if pikachu will look down on me.
hais...
:((((((((((
i just simply can't breath right now.
stuck up.
by everything that happens.
i still thought that i will be able to pass all this time round..
but end up...
i shall end here.

love is deeply shown.
from you and from me.
i love ue pikachu.
9 months 23 days with ue.
i'm contented.
hugs.muacks.
:)))))))))))

2008-05-12T21:12:00.000-07:00

back to posting again.
that elaine larrhs ask me to do the quiz.

1)At what age do you wish to be married?
ans:24 or 25?

2)If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 buddies you'd take and why?
ans:junhao-because he is my darl. life will pass easlier with him ;)
elaine-she is a real chatter box! i won't be bored with her around.
my sister-she is a great survivor!

3)Where is the place that you want to go the most?
ans:england, USA and japan

4)If you can have 1 dream come true, what would it be?
ans:for him to let her go and be with him forevers.

5)Do you believe you can survive without money?
ans:hmm..maybe bahs. at least got him to love me is enough :)

6)What are you afraid to lose most?
ans:myself

7)If you win $1 Million, what would you do?
ans: i will probably buy a hundred over thousand cello and keep the rest for further studies.

8)If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
ans:i'm already with him.

9)List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
ans-cute,friendly and pleasant.

10)What is your dream GIRL/BOY?
ans:caring, romantic and cute

11)What kind of person do you hate the most?
ans:hypocrite,backstabbers,acting innocent/cute.

12)If you are given the chance to go back to the past and make a difference, will you?
ans:yes. i will.

13)Unconditional Love, what does it means to you?
ans: don't ask anything in return.

14)Any wisdom to share with your readers?
ans:guys are irresponsible freak.

15)If there's ever a war(or things that are similar) happening in your place, are you going to move to a safer place or fight?
ans:hmm..move to somewhere safe. i still want to live to 100.

16)If you have the chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
ans:not to be soft hearted.

17)Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
ans:sister and mates

18)What's your weakest point?
ans:narrow minded

19)Think of the person who tagged you to do this quiz. What song do you relate him or her?
ans:erhs.i don't know.

20)What is the one thing you regret most?
ans: sorry. can't say.hees.

21)Name people who you want them to do this question.
ans:my beloved

hees.finally finish the quiz.

hmm..
just finish my last paper yesterday.
food and nutrition.
quite easy bahs.
finish it in one hr...
:))
skool is reopening tomorrow.
getting back the papers i guess.
wish me good luck
;)
intend to make the cookies for him today cus he said he like it.
but now i don't know if i still want to make it for him.
craps :x
lols...
aiya just don't know what to post lers.
stop here.

:)))))

2008-05-10T19:58:00.000-07:00

i'm now at the library.
posting.
:/
obviously rites.
hais..
what is the defination for life?
to get pissed off?
to get scolded?
or...
aiya. just don't know.
having problems recently.
but i think is getting over soon.
i'm not crying.
just shaking my head.
for the ending of my problems.
i should think that it is not the ending of the world.
just some sort of what so ever.
my problems is nobody business.
:(
haiyo.why am i still having negative thought?
for someone who don't even care.
stupid!
-,-
i'm scolding myself.
not anyone else.
just let me stick to myself.

i believe god will save me.
for my ignorance.
i learn to love myself since no one love me.
that's it.
;)
anw, just want to say happy mother's day to my mom.
thanks mama.